Milestone

It’s been a rough year for my writing. I’ve been fighting several health issues: carpal tunnel, migraines, nausea, depression and anxiety. I’ve been healing from my hysterectomy as well.

Most of my writings had been my therapy as the three therapists this year didn’t do much. The third one at least tried.

On November 27th of this year (2023,) I hit the million word mark.

However the milestone kind of feels mute, empty and a pointless victory, as I do have books written but only one book is technically published. (I pushed it too fast because create space gave me a deadline. It really needs a major edit.)

80% of my writing this year was either lists, spiritual, and therapeutic.

If it wasn’t for my amazing and creative boyfriend, then I wouldn’t have written much creative writing at all.

There have been days where I didn’t write, because of the pain in my hands or throbbing in my head. My headaches were so bad and got worst in the fall. They made my left eye get white dots and what I call sludgy eye fig. It made it hard to read, write or just watch TV. My doctors (talked to more than one) say it’s hormonal or seasonal and caused by dust and dry air.

I’m getting carpal tunnel surgery in January, but I’m not sure about the headaches.

Meanwhile I feel like I’m in a mental prison because I cannot get my ideas out.

But I did get my millionth word. The millionth word was ghosts. It’s irony as I am supernatural and horror writer.

My dream is to publish my books and make a living a creative writer/author. I also want my own podcast and work with on my own spiritual path and the occult.

Camp NaNoWriMo

My results are in….26,178 words in 30 days …. My goal was 30,000 words.

I was sick with cold and sinus issues for the first two weeks. I was exhausted and I barely got up to do my normal chores and errands. (It was not COVID)

I didn’t keep up with my spiritual blog every day. I will post the rest of the blogs when I can.

Then today I was listening to one of my favorite tarot readers on YouTube and I was told I need to write….https://youtu.be/p4X16QrYMbQ

It says I need to write and write my story now. Or I’ll end up passing up on an opportunity. Of course on a very busy month. May is going to be very busy..

I hope to find some inspiration.

Lights Out

Lights out. Sighs.

The fates must not want me to write at night. . . But my muses work at night the best. . . Grrr. Sigh.

This is the second light I have broken within the last 6 months. I got two desk lamps . . . The first on the clip busted. The second one bust the connector from the cord and what screws in the bulb.

I can’t read my writing to retype on this blog. . . It strains my eyes and causes several migraines. (I cannot afford to fall behind on lay in bed all day. . . I have to help my mom.)

I’m trying to clean and write during the day, but it’s hard to focus.

I hope get a light soon.

My Ideal day

I wake up by 10 am. “Let’s make a Deal” is playing in the background. I make fresh coffee and egg sandwiches.

I write my daily blogs while enjoying breaking and listening to game shows.

By lunch, we go out get a quick bite and get errands and shopping done. (I love to shop, but on days I’m not doing errands, I will organize notes, research topics for my writings, clean a room, or write more. I fit in writing whenever I can.)

We get home and together make a fun dinner. . . Cheese shrimp pasta or steak fajitas.

Then we clean up together and enjoy down time.

My down time is chatting with online friends, listening to music and working on my short stories, blogs, and novels.

Read a bit before going to bed.

Note: For those who say, I write too much, then I say you don’t know me. (And you probably never truly understand me.)

A day without writing, is unproductive say to me.

A Grrrrr Challenge

I use my middle and index finger when I text and type on my tablets

. . . . and since I cut my middle finger, its been a challenge. I call it a Grrrr Challenge.

However I will not stop writing! It is just a small timed setback. I will be typing faster soon.

Finished Camp Nanowrimo

I completed Camp Nanowrimo July 2018 with the word count 30,691.

I swear as soon as I just barely got pass 30,000 words . . . it was like my muses stopped. I hit a writing brick wall.

I can write a few blogs, but its like muses saw the up hill hike for part 2 and all said “hell no!” LOL.

I am grateful that I finished part one, and I wrote over 30,000 words by hand.

However even my desk lamp broke, so next month it will be more blogs.

Damn it my hands. . . Grrr

I love to write. The feel of a good pen in my hands as it glides on the page. It invites the words, the color, the creativity.

However my hands have been swelling and cramping for weeks now. I tried water pills, but I sleep and they are swollen again. There are cramps as I write. Pushing down on my palm hurts, moving it too much hurts.

It hurts to hold a pen or a fork. It hurts to make a fist. These damn cramps. I probably have arthritis or carpal tunnel syndrome.

I refuse to give up my writing. I felt due my ear issue, I had give up music. I’m not giving up my writing too.

Maybe I can get my computer fixed soon . . . So I can type more.

I’m going to the doctor soon.

Muses vs what I want to do vs inspiration

I wanted to work on this dragon story for my brothers. I used Tom tell them stories at bed time. The stories were about Star wars, dragons, Harry Potter etc. Whatever story I made up, I would put them in it. I would make my special effects, sounds and I would add some humor relief.

I always wanted to write a story about dragons and add them in it. . . Bring my brothers to my created world.

However my sci-fi and fantasy muse Luna, is not that loud, busy or strong. . . Not confident as those are not my natural genres. It hard for me to get that genre because I have my head filled with horror, thriller, paranormal, drama, romance, and erotica. (My muses really have been pushing the drama and erotica.)

I guess I just miss my brothers. . . I know my inspiration will lead back if I am truly meant to write it. . . But I can’t even figure out a villain or an outline.

I feel it’s not right to fight it. I’m not giving up, but it needs to simmer in the inspiration pot some more. I learned when I push work, especially writing, I just end up stuck, in a writer’s block.

I’m just going to give my muses a chance to lead me for a while.

Yay, dances, Its finished.

I’m so excited that on Thursday night I finished my thriller novella trilogy called “Driving Lies.”

It’s been a working project since 2011. I started it on my third Nanowrimo.

It was based on a script I started in high school. I took the scenes I liked the best and retweaked them.

The last five chapters of book 3 are hand written as my laptop is down again. . . It’s like a lemon of a car. Sigh. Now my writing hand is swollen and sore. . . I probably have carpal tunnel syndrome.

So I’m giving myself a few days off for some major writing. I think I deserved it.

I’m excited and disappointed that it’s finished. . . At least draft one.

I know I will lots of editing and rewrites, but I feel like my favorite part of the process is done. Sighs.

Now to edit once a week, and a new project.

I just hope get it published and for the rest of the world to read by early next year. I hope they enjoy it.

I have to thank my muses for not shuttingbup or stopping even when I was in pain. I got so much accomplished.

Health vs writing

Lately, I have been getting inspiration between the hours of 1am and 7 am. So I get on the tablet or set up the tv table and write. Check out my Short Stories, I did get a few posted. . . My Short stories

• The more I try for a day schedule, the more my body seems to fight it.
• My heart burn issues wake me up and it sometimes feels like it is impossible to go back to sleep.
• Then my eyes strain with the glow of the screen because everyone else wants the lights off.
• I also have a dry cough that keeps me up all night. I feel like I’m choking but their is nothing there. . . Like I am choking on air.
• I’ve been fighting headaches so bad, they are migraines and I’m down for days at a time with nausea and extreme pain in the head and eyes.
• I’m also fighting hot flashes so bad, making my eyes and neck burn.
• My pelvic area, lower back, and thighs have random pain, and it is hard to be comfortable as I write.
• This has been fighting against me with getting quality writing.

I just want a decent writing schedule bit why is my health fighting me.