What I want in 2018

  1. I want to write as much as I .
  2. Be less distracted so I can focus more
  3. Finish driving lies (one chapter away)
  4. Finish the broken path
  5. Edit at less once of a week. 
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Distraction #1 

My health issues. . . 

  1. My sleep patterns are off. 
  2. My depression can kill my motivation. 
  3. My anxiety can make focus scattered. 
  4. My brain never stops.
  5. I’m always trying to make myself or someone else happy. 
  6. There times I get stomachs issues or cramps that steal my attention.
  7. I get migraines that are very harsh on my eyes.


I need to see a few doctors and get this figured out. Hopefully. 

It’s my birthday. . .

And I’m writing, damn it!

It is 3:48am, and I’m sacrificing sleep for my true bliss . . . One hour of undisturbed block of writing. It is just my blogs but it is bliss. 

  • No one interrupting me just to purposely step on my nerve. 
  • No one asking if I am ok after I growl at previous person. 
  • No one asking me to cook or make coffee.
  • No one complaining about some trivial thing. 
  • No one giving me a random sports or video game piece of info I’ll never use. 

Just me with my endless head. 

Between lack of comfort, lack of machinery, depression, and no lights on at night, I haven’t been writing. Even now I have a creak in my neck, but I am getting some of my blogs done. 

This weekend my goal is to write three short stories . . . One must be a holiday story

Now I must get some sleep. 

NaNoWriMo: 2017, another year gone.

SIGH. 

This is the second year, I did not reach my epic goal of 50,000 words this year. In fact, I did the same thing I did in Camp Nanowrimo. . . I gave myself the goal of 50,000, but only reached 35,000. Sigh. 

The worst part is all I have is excuses to fill in why. . . 

  1. Complicated love life
  2. Broken computer
  3. Exhaustion
  4. Errands
  5. Getting out more
  6. Depression
  7. Story is therapy  (sometimes hard to face)
  8. Movies or tv more interesting (Especially cuddling)
  9. Cannot get comfortable to write (no desk)

I just want energy to sit at a comfortable chair in front of a simple desk, with a caffeinated drink, and working computer. . . Is that too much to ask?

Writing vs the Holiday

  1. I love to write.
  2. I love to cook.
  3. I love to bake.
  4. I love to color.
  5. I love to listen to music. (And sing along)
  6. I love to watch movies.
  7. I love to go shopping.

    Most of these are in random order, except my writing. I love to write. It is my passion. 

    So with the holidays, I am always busy in the kitchen. I am making the turkey this year, and I will be very busy Thursday and Friday with my male friend. (Long story, but I’ll explain in my other blog soon. Http://beckyms1213blog.wordpress.com )

    I want to double my word count for the rest of of Nanowrimo.  I hope I get to 50,000 words by November 30th. 

    I know I have said this before, but I can make a seven course meal, clean the entire house, be on 4 hours of sleep, pay all of the bills, go shopping, and if I do not write something, I feel my day is unproductive

    I know a good meal, nice, and a clean place, feels good, but without writing, I just do not feel accomplished anything at all. 

    Writing for me, even just 5 minutes or 8 hours is something special.

     It is a chaotic, artistic, sweet moment to see my colorful thoughts go from black and white to color again. 

    So I hope I get sometime to write. I still need to cook and hang out with my friend. 

    Balancing romance and writing

    I’ve been told I write too much, and I’ve seen it get in the way and caused  many fights with my ex’s and I. 

    However I was told “don’t put away your writing for me.”

    Some of the best words a writer could hear. . . 
    My new guy seems to believe in me and my writing dreams. I hope not let him down and those who support me. 

    However when he is home, I want to spend as much time with him as I can. (I just hope I’m not being too demanding in my time, I mean our time.)

    I also try to balance writing and cleaning while he works so I can spend sometime with him when he gets home. Ultimate balance is time with him and writing.