Stuck in a web of writer’s block

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I had plans for writing everyday and post a bunch of blogs. . . it has not happened because as of Dec 30th circumstances had changed.

I hope to get things back to my goals soon, but for now please be patient with me. (I think I am writing this more for myself than my few, wonderful readers.)

Many of my friends on here have been asking about me. . . I am currently numb. I just helped an ex (who was still a good friend of mine) he had gotten a liver transplant in August and was good until his sudden death a week ago. I am still trying to spin my head around this.

It started with an exploratory surgery and ended 14 days later with my ex (still a good friend) dying of cancer of his new liver, in his stomach, and lymph nodes.

I just don’t understand, I was talking to him, watching him work on physical therapy one day and two days later in tears as they announced time of death.

I had been blocked because I had been busy going back and forth from ICU to my appointments and such . . . I little time to think clearly. Now I have time, I’m just stunned.

I due plan to continue with writing, but I just do NOT know how fast it will be. (He would have wanted me to never stop my writing. I hope that he’ll be my inspiration.) 

 

Writing Goals for 2017

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Writing Goals for 2017

  1. I want to write 1 to 4 hour (averaging at 2.5).
  2. I want to give myself 3 to 10 (20 minutes) word sprints daily (averaging 5)
  3. I want to finish old projects.
  4. I want to work on some new project ideas.
  5. I want to explore new genres.
  6. I want to get some short stories published.
  7. I want to write 200 blogs (over all of my blogs)
  8. I want to write about my depression and anxiety.
  9. I want to enter some contests. (Including Camp NaNoWriMo and NaNoWriMo)
  10. I know I NEED to edit several projects.
  11. I just want to write something everyday.
  12. I want to write more books reviews.
  13. I want to read more. (2 books a month.)

New Project Ideas

  1. Adult works
  2. Blog Prompts
  3. Story Prompts
  4. Writing Tips
  5. Romance
  6. Spirituality
  7. Anxiety and depression ideas
  8. Diabetes project
  9. Character video project

Projects that I need to Finish

  1. Love Need Time (rewrite novel idea)
  2. Hero project (comic idea)
  3. DWAG (online soap opera)
  4. College story
  5. Driving Lies part 3

Projects I need to edit

  1. The Whisper Path
  2. Melzela
  3. Darken Cake
  4. Many short stories
  5. Driving Lies Parts 1 & 2

What Happened in 2016

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2016 was a very challenging year. I felt really stuck and trapped this year, so I really didn’t feel I accomplished that much. I mean I didn’t even finish a book: writing or reading. However I have learned a lot about myself.

Things I accomplished in 2016.

  1. I wrote over 50 blogs in this page. (140 blogs throughout all of my pages).Links to my other blogs
  2. I have at least 15 followers. ( I hope I have entertained and help some follow writers. I also to get more this year.)
  3. I written over 225,000 words ( I know not quite the goal of 500,000, but not bad with all I have gone through.)
  4. I started Book 2 in my vampire series. (However due to some emotional issues; it is on the back burner for a while.)
  5. I have written two diaries this year.

Things I have learned in 2016

  1. I have figured out some of my muses. https://rebekahquinne.wordpress.com/2016/10/19/introduction-my-muses/
  2. I realized that winning NaNoWriMo doesn’t stop the world. It isn’t everything. (Bit does feel good when I win. I’m sad because they don’t work with http://www.createspace.com anymore.)
  3. I write really well in chaos, especially while visiting in the hospital. (I’m even there now.)
  4. I write way more than I edit.
  5. I am more of an adder than a cutter when it comes to words.
  6. I can not write well around who don’t support it.
  7. I was suggested to put my paranormal/horror/occult genres aside for a while. . . (until I figure the source of my depression and anxiety.)
  8. I will still write even though many people think I write too much.
  9. I give myself much more ambitious goals than I can achieve. (for example: write 500,000 words.) I plan to push it down to 300,000 words in 2017.
  10. It has been a very emotional year for my muses and I.
  11. I was easily distracted this year.
  12. I rather edit than clean.
  13. I need to realize that writing is for me. It is a good expression of therapy for me.
  14. I had a therapy book and/or release book before I started therapy.
  15. The people I looked up to were the ones who seem to criticize when I wrote a lot.

I’m trying to take things more seriously

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I love to have fun and be a kid at heart, but that is not paying the bills.
I like to think that I am pretty professional on this blog.
I try to use my experience and links I find to help others.
I hope to be encouraging and give other effective tips.

However my audience isn’t that big.
I am not sure how much of difference I am making.
I hope to improve that in 2017.
I also hope to get something published next year.

I seem to give myself goals and yet I get discouraged and dishearten from it and usually fall short.

I refuse to fall short of my goals next year.

I am going to try to take myself and my writings more seriously.

2017 is going to be my year!

Dear Santa

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Dear Creative Santa,

I have tried to be a good writer (minus a few discouraging people and distractions). I tried to write something every day. I try to keep my brain working.

I ask for several things this year.

  1. Motivation . . . I need to get some willpower and write. (Even when I have writer’s block.)
  2. Inspiration . . .  please let me see the world in a new light.
  3. 300,000 word count.  I know I gave myself too high of goal in 2016, but may 2017 be a productive year.

I would also like to be published this year, but I am just taking things one at a time.

Thank you for everything I have experienced this year, and maybe I could use it in a story or two.

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From a Hopeful, Soon to be published Writer

Rebekah Quinne

Confession #4

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Confession: Your first draft is always crap. . . There are nuggets of gold/diamond in the pieces, but they really need to be cleaned, and re-polished. . .

My first of novel I wrote a paranormal-drama about a girl who could see and talked to ghosts. I wrote it for NaNoWriMo. . . it was simply to see if I could write 50,000 in one month. I think I ended with 52,000 or 53,000 words when I was done. However that was not the end of the book; I finished writing it the next NaNoWriMo. It ended with 160,000 words. . . I have still yet to completely edit it. I have learned I am an over-writer. My first draft will always have too much.

I look back now and go “D@mn what the *BEEP* did I write?” 

  1. I have noticed that parts of it are therapy, just venting against people I know.
  2. There are parts where it seem to go on and on and have nothing to do with the main story-line.
  3. I had a crushes on one of my side characters and put him in way more than he needed to be. Worst part is his is a frickle, artistic jerk, but I loved his look.
  4. I know I need to vent and wine less and show more suspense.
  5. When I rewrite and edit, I plan to cut a lot and focus more on the story of the ghost and less on a whiny girl.

It was my first draft and I finished NaNoWriMo two years in a row because of it so it is an accomplishment. It is just not finished yet.

My advice is focus on getting the words out. 

There are articles on surviving NaNoWriMo. 

http://www.signature-reads.com/2016/10/surviving-nanowrimo-the-tough-mudder-of-writing-challenges/?cdi=3DD2CA8D59970C03E0534FD66B0A212F&ref=PRH774FF6C894

http://nanowrimo.org/forums/helpful-resources-sites

http://campnanowrimo.org/writing-resources

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Writing Confession #3

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I have written more, in the last two months, in a hospital than I have at home. 

I have learned something about myself. . . I write well in the middle of chaos. I like having things going on around me that I am not involved it. It keeps my mind constantly going. The only disadvantage is that it can cause me to get drained and exhausted.
At home, 9 times out of 10, I’m already exhausted before I write.
I really want a place where I feel I can write. 😦 Writing at home is hard.

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