Updates August 2020

It’s been a while since I really posted.

The truth it’s been a real struggle this year to get any of my ideas out.

I’ve had several projects I’ve been working on with a friend and it was because of him that I even got about 18k written last month.

I also had 30 poems written in 30 days on my short story blog. https://rqshortstories.wordpress.com/

However when it comes to major writing projects. . . I’ve been blocked. Extremely blocked since May.

I have been fighting depression, cabin fever, and extreme anxiety.

My computer is down. (I’m even writing this blog on a phone is data issues. Sighs.)

I lost a good friend to anxiety and depression issues. (My other health issues make it worst.)

The mixture of it all has me fighting whether writing is for me.

However my ultimate bliss is sitting at a table or desk and typing or writing story after story. I love creating characters and making story twists. It’s amazing when the story takes a life of its own and characters direct where they want to go.

I just hope I get my spark back.

Meanwhile I took an editing job. I’m finally putting my college degree to good use. An A.A. in English.

Camp NaNoWriMo April 2020 Won.

I did it! I wrote 31,282 / 30,000.

I did despite my depression, my sinuses, dealing with my family with the quarantine. I have also been worried over illness and budgeting. In fact, being stuck, writing was my sanity.

I worked a three different projects, so yes I rebelled. However all that mattered was that I did manage to get 31k in my word count not counting blogging or journals within the 30 days.

I do have to give credit to my best friend River for being my writing cheerleader. He really helped me through. Between River and coffee I am not sure I would have made it.

By the way. . . I post alot on my instagram /https://www.instagram.com/rebekahquinne/

Camp NaNoWriMo April 2020

It’s so far so good. I am just under 22k, and today is 22nd, which is good as my personal goal is 1k per day. So I am almost there.

I hope I get to 50, 000 words, but it’s been tricky as I am have anxiety over this lock-in and the virus. I really should write about it. I feel like with everyone always home, I really have no privacy, no moments to myself.

Going out (which I do at most once a week, if I can wait, then two weeks.) Going out is very bizzard, I am waiting for zombies to show. The facial masks and gloves make me instantly feel sick as I have zero symptoms. I used to love shopping, even if it was just grocery shopping, but now it’s a sad chore. I feel like everyone is paranoid. The truth is only 1% of the population even has the virus. I think the media pushes the stats daily making the crowds more crazed. I am NOT saying take this lightly, but do not freak out someone so bad that they stop enjoying life. (I am sorry for those who are sick and/or died, but I really believe it will get better by summer.)

I will admit I am avoiding doctors and hospitals. (However I still need food and toilet paper.)

My gout acts up whenever I walk too much. I am then down for several days after as I have to keep my feet up. I cannot use my computer in bed as it overheats so easily.

My anemia was high making me easily exhausted but coffee really helped. I was still able to make dinner and help someone with writing, and yet working on my own.

Today I did get some things clean, including myself. However my true hair color is in my roots.

Tomorrow I need to go through my notebooks and get stuff on the computer so I have less loose papers.

I also enjoy watching others write on google docs. . . it’s cool to watch how it appears; it’s like watching a writer’s head at work.

Best advice during this time: find hobbies together and hobbies apart. Give yourself some special time.

Meanwhile I am working on Camp NaNoWriMo. . . several projects.

Camp NaNoWriMo Update

Well, since we have all been stuck in with the fear of this virus. I have been trying to stay busy.(In March, my family all had runny noses and a cough, but no breathing issues or fevers. We are all better now, restless but better. I’m worried over finances, but there are alot of other people who are worried too. I’ve been trying to stay busy, cooking, writing, and chatting with good online friends.)My Camp NaNoWriMo Update at end of day 8 I’m at 8500 plus words.

While stuck in with Coronavirus

I have had major writer’s block since mid-November and the longer I have gone with it, the less and less I feel like myself. I have tried writing different things and exercise (walks) and nothing has worked that much. 

Then over the past few weeks, the Coronavirus has really made the news. I think we are just days from all being stuck inside for a while. I feel within days even weeks, we will be stuck inside for a while. I hope you have ideas for self-entertainment/ amusement.
I will admit most of us are freaked out as our average days have suddenly changed. We have had nothing like this in history.  

I will tell you something . . . for the other writers out there blocked like me, please write about your experience.  I plan to write on my own. . . even if you don’t have the virus, should write on how the experience has changed your life or maybe even way of thinking.  We are all going through a very unique moment of history that can be more documented that ever before. (Yes, we have had viruses, plagues and other sickness, but not where we are connected to each simply by the Internet and phone.) 

A few things you can do while you have extra time. . . 

  1. A new writing project (for all of those writers out there)
  2. Netflix or youtube or hulu binges
  3. Read a book or two or ten
  4. Facebook group (please avoid the drama)
  5. Create your own website
  6. Exercise
  7. Paint or color
  8. Learn a new skill: cooking, baking, dance etc
  9. Cook a new dish
  10. Clean out your house
  11. Self-cation or stay-ation. . . It’s like a vacation but in your house. . . pampering yourself. . . bath, favorite music, relaxing do your own favorite things. 

I will give a secret of mine for all those who are depressed, anxious, worried, upset etc. . . . and seriously need counseling or simply an extra person to talk to. https://www.7cups.com really helps me. Please use this site seriously. This situation is very new and scary for a lot of people. . . and depression and anxiety are very serious things. 

Writer Block Excuses

Writer’s block Excuses . . . (And Arguments)

  1. I can’t think. (Why can’t you think? Write about it? For 60 seconds write whatever pops in your head. . . triggers? Pain? Hope? Happiness? Suffering? Anger? Just write it all.)

  2. I overthink. (Stop over overanalyzing . . . the word analyze had as ass it, so pull your head out of it and simply write. Or write about overthink, but stop thinking and just write!)

  3. All of my thoughts are tangled. (Work (Write) on a piece at time, and then another piece. . . over time you will have it figured out, no book got truly written overnight.)

  4. I’m too depressed. (Get out of bed and write about it. . . write about what would make you less depressed.)

  5. I just can’t write. (Not right. . . . Why? Do you have no fingers? Are you too busy? Whatever you think it is. . . write about it, damn it!)

  6. I am not good enough. (Write and prove yourself wrong. . . fight your inner demons.)

  7. I’m completely distracted. (Use your distraction in one of your stories. . . your characters probably get distracted too.)

  8. I’m lazy. (Thank for being honest, but get off your lazy butt and write something.)

  9. I have no light. (Use your phone or tablet . . . write)

  10. I have headaches. (Write in brief sprints. . . they add up.)

  11. I have computer issues. (write on Pen and Paper)

  12. My muses are arguing. (Write out the argument)

  13. I have mixed up my priories. (Write out what they are and the order)

  14. I’m restless. (Go for a walk, clean, and come back and write about it or write in a new spot)

  15. I need to read more. (Make time like 30 minutes each day to read, and at least 30 minutes to write)

  16. I’m only going to get rejected. (You will NOT know unless you try. NOW WRITE!)

  17. I’m not interested in that project. (Then work on something new. Just Write!)

  18. Others tell me “I write too much.” (Fuck them, if writing makes you happy, then write.)

  19. I’m sick or sore. (Rest it off and then write.)

  20. I’m tired. (Rest, but write in sprints. . . each bit counts. I got around 700,000 in 2019)

If anyone noticed that in every reply to my many excuses. . . I said write in one way or another. . . I just wish I would take my own advice. (I did manage to get about 1200 words written in my blogs.)

Nanowrimo 2019

It’s November 22nd, and I have about just over 20k words written.

I know with my physical and mental health issues that I am not going to push 30k in less than ten days.

However I’m not taking this as a failure, but as lessons learned.

I have learned that when working with a friend, I have to reorganize my time better.

I also have realized even though my walks are good for me, and getting out is good for me, they both take energy that I would have used for my writing. I need to exercise, write, talk with friends for my mental health.

It is all about balance.

I also realized that this character, in book two, does not want his story told just yet. I’m thinking maybe even going out of straight storline tell the stories out of order.

I’m rereading Melzela, tweaking her and getting that book published.

I am also making December my month and ending 2019 for me. I declare by end of 2020, I will be a professional published author. I’m determined. (Note: I do have to thank several people for my confidence and hope on my work again. One of them is a really good friend of mine.)

I plan to work on writing and if I add it my Nanowrimo that is awesome, but just getting writing in.

I learned that it’s just good to get a story out, word count is not always tat important.

Word Challenge update

Last Saturday, July 20th, I participate in a the 10k in 24 hour word writing challenge.

I read about from this blog, https://abookhavenx.wordpress.com/2019/07/15/write-10k-in-a-day/

I did not get 10 k, but I got 5,845 words on my thriller novel trilogy. I am almost finished with book, the first draft of the thriller trilogy and I got caught up with my Camp Nanowrimo word count.

I had been fighting depression and home issues, so I was behind. I think because of that challenge will get my goal 30k word count this month.

Its 23 and I have about seven days. . . my two goals are reaching my 30,000 word count and finishing my novel.

I really think I can do this and when I do I redye my hair purple again. Yay.

Camp NaNoUpdate

I have been dealing with anxiety and depression, and it has been very hard on my body and mind. This means my writing has been suffering.

I have changed my project from Family project to short stories. . . If an idea inspires me, then I write it down. Then I just accumulate the word count of each story. I might post some on my flash fiction blog. . . http://rqshortstories.wordpress.com

I am also not pushing myself. (I had one break down and lost entire weekend to depression, reoccurring mono and sleep.)

I gave myself 30,000 words as a goal. If I make it, awesome. If I do not make it, then I can try again in November.

I hope just get some decent stories written, at this point word count is as it is.

Endings, again.

I’m trying to type up the last chapter on the last novella of my thriller trilogy “Driving Lies,” and I feel like my feet are stuck in the mud.

I wrote about this once before. Actually it was funny, because it was when I was actually handwriting the ending to this exact project.

https://rebekahquinne.wordpress.com/2018/02/16/endings-3/

The thing is once I know this is done, then I have to edit this project. I’m horrible with editing. I’m a writer, not an editor. I realize that editors are so expensive.

I need a good edit before I show an agent or a publishing company.

I think I’m so afraid of rejection from these companies that I am purposefully holding myself back.

Question to my nervous self: What if they really like my work?