What I want in 2018

  1. I want to write as much as I .
  2. Be less distracted so I can focus more
  3. Finish driving lies (one chapter away)
  4. Finish the broken path
  5. Edit at less once of a week. 
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Relations vs writing part 2 

I posted this in November Balancing Romance and Writing . . . 

Summary: I had a guy who I wanted to be my boyfriend for about six weeks, but we are in two different places in our lives. However we agreed to be just friends, and I am glad to have him in my life ( minus the his complaining.)

Most people ( minus my supporting mom and brother) say I write too much, but my friend said it was okay for me to write

I tried to write while he worked, so when he was home, I could spend time with him. I was trying to give my undivided attention to him as I learned in the past that I annoyed others being stuck in my own world. 

The thing is that the longer I stay away from my writing, the less of myself, I feel. . .

I know who I am. . . 

  • I am a writer and storyteller! 
  • I am brutually honest and yet vividly creative.
  • I can not leave the house for days at a time with my head in a tablet or computer screen.
  • I love lists and have scheduled my life around my writing. 
  • I’m a creative mess, but I am a damn good, semi-organized researcher. 
  • I need someone who encourages me. 


I do not need . . .

  • Someone who wants kids. ( I prefer my four pawed babies, cats.)
  • Someone complaining that we had another slow-cooker dinner, (please be grateful I am a damn creative and good cook.)
  • Someone who doesn’t want to be immortalized in my written work, (because a high chance he will inspire a character or two or ten.)
  • Someone who says I write too much. 
  • Someone who says I am too messy.
  • Someone who says I am too moody ( when it comes to writing, I’m not cranky, I’m passionate.)

  I’m not a family originated female. I’m fine with that. I’m fun, positive, talkative, and perky. I’m auntie Becky and I’m fine with that. 

I just need someone who understands. . . I’m a writer. I will not change myself for anyone!

If a guy cannot handle that then he needs to find someone else

Distraction #1 

My health issues. . . 

  1. My sleep patterns are off. 
  2. My depression can kill my motivation. 
  3. My anxiety can make focus scattered. 
  4. My brain never stops.
  5. I’m always trying to make myself or someone else happy. 
  6. There times I get stomachs issues or cramps that steal my attention.
  7. I get migraines that are very harsh on my eyes.


I need to see a few doctors and get this figured out. Hopefully. 

It’s my birthday. . .

And I’m writing, damn it!

It is 3:48am, and I’m sacrificing sleep for my true bliss . . . One hour of undisturbed block of writing. It is just my blogs but it is bliss. 

  • No one interrupting me just to purposely step on my nerve. 
  • No one asking if I am ok after I growl at previous person. 
  • No one asking me to cook or make coffee.
  • No one complaining about some trivial thing. 
  • No one giving me a random sports or video game piece of info I’ll never use. 

Just me with my endless head. 

Between lack of comfort, lack of machinery, depression, and no lights on at night, I haven’t been writing. Even now I have a creak in my neck, but I am getting some of my blogs done. 

This weekend my goal is to write three short stories . . . One must be a holiday story

Now I must get some sleep. 

NaNoWriMo: 2017, another year gone.

SIGH. 

This is the second year, I did not reach my epic goal of 50,000 words this year. In fact, I did the same thing I did in Camp Nanowrimo. . . I gave myself the goal of 50,000, but only reached 35,000. Sigh. 

The worst part is all I have is excuses to fill in why. . . 

  1. Complicated love life
  2. Broken computer
  3. Exhaustion
  4. Errands
  5. Getting out more
  6. Depression
  7. Story is therapy  (sometimes hard to face)
  8. Movies or tv more interesting (Especially cuddling)
  9. Cannot get comfortable to write (no desk)

I just want energy to sit at a comfortable chair in front of a simple desk, with a caffeinated drink, and working computer. . . Is that too much to ask?

Ideal writing schedule

My average times I write . . . 

  • Between 1pm and 5pm 
  • Between 8pm and 2am 

I focus best in the afternoon after a coffee and lunch or after dinner if nothing is on that night.

Bad to times to write . . .

Between 6am to noon 

Between 5pm to 8pm 

I am not a morning person. If I can get up early, and I feel a woke. I’ve learned I edit better in the mornings, it’s very, very, very rare. Did I mention I am not a morning person? Diabetes also makes me very foggy just before dinner. 

It’s been hard to write everyday. This has been making me cranky when I cannot write. Between my depression, sleep, and other health issues, it’s been a challenge to write daily. 

I’ve been having bad sleeping problems. (I mentioned these issues in my personal blog http://beckyms1213blog.wordpress.com). I’m working on seeing my doctor to fix this.