Thoughts in my head at 4am

It’s always happen this way . . . it’s 4am in the morning and my brain and my muses will NOT wine down.

It can be any other day when I am not doing anything and they do not want to work either.
However when I have to get up and go to do errands.

My brain just keep going and going.  . . . So many thoughts.

  • Will I ever finish my book if my computer keeps corrupting my files? (Grrr)
  • Why does overheating cause my files to corrupt? (I just do not know why those would even be related. I’m so flustered that I put over a week of work only for it to go to a black screen just at the last line. . . just before I hit save. GRRRR. (I lose a week worth of word count just about 8,000 words, my computer over heated and entire chapter got corrupted. . . GRRRRR)
  • Am I really talented or am I wasting time? (I am torn with this, but then again hours of writing with coffee, soda or tea in my travel mug. . . is my currently bliss. I just would love to be famous or at least Very well known for my written work. I want to be the author if Stephen King and Anne Rice had a kid together. . . I know it sounds weird, but I love both author’s works. I already have three people within the week that are interested in my driving thriller. )
  • Do NaNoWriMo or Camp NaNoWriMo really help? (I mean I push myself for that month to get words in my books, but are they that good? Do I really need to push my novel in so many weeks like Stephen King does? I mean he already has several publisher. . . Why am I even asking myself those questions? It’s my damn anxiety and depression monsters trying to think they are logical, but they are just trying to keep me down so that they get more powerful. Grrrr)
  • Why do I keep getting hit on by guys 50 or older? (I feel like I am the good kid that parents all liked a bit too much.) (It would be really weird the guys 20 years older than me look at me like a healthy sexual being.) Age is a thing to me. . . I would like someone closer to my age. There is a difference between 10 years, defiantly between 20 years. (I mean back when my uncle went to school they had a smoking lounge. Matters, slang, how people look at things all change with time. I have not found anyone 10 years and older that truly understand me.)
  • Why can’t I play Words with Friends (WWF) without getting guys 50 plus who have kids and instantly think I want to fill the void of their dead wife? (I do not want to be a replacement “mommy” while my own body will not allow me to make my own, and the guy my father’s age is having a secret affair with his secretary. I just want to play a game of scramble and beat my highest score of 437. I use words with friends and word scape to keep my brain fresh for my writing and reading skills.)
  • Will I get ever get professionally published? (This does not be self-published to be lost in the amazon.com sea of so-so books. I mean to find a real publisher, agent, and editor on my team to help me sell and promote my book while they have me go from book store to book store signing books while everyone want to know what will happen next in my vampire and ghost series. I need a real publisher and editor. . . I am so overwhelmed. )
  • Will I get a better place and have bigger desk, nicer pc, and cat? (I also want a kitchen, bath tub, and my own recliner. When will this happen?)

 

It’s almost 5 am. . . I think I need to sleep now. . . hopefully dreaming of publishing and getting a nicer place.

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More Book Reviews

I had writer’s block so I have been reading more. I enjoy short scary stories. . . here are a few reviews for three of them with links.

True Ghost Stories: Haunted Buildings, Creepy Forests, Spooky Tales And Eerie True Ghost Stories From The Scariest Places

By Jason Keeler

I give it a 5 out of 5 stars.

I am a huge horror buff and I really enjoy the retelling of many of these non-fiction ghost stories.

I enjoy a few of the stories. Some are the origins of some urban legends I know. Others are stories from around the world that I have not heard of until today.

It written well, and it’s very organized. Buildings, Forests, and accidental tales.

I could not put it down: I read it in one session.

I would suggest it for a good ghost story reference book.

I hope to read more of his work.

https://www.amazon.com/True-Ghost-Stories-Buildings-Scariest/dp/B01M02A6U9/ref=cm_cr_srp_d_product_top?ie=UTF8

 

 

There are at least 4 or 5 dozen short stories by Drac Von Stroller (Many of them are currently free or at least they were when I downloaded several for my kindle.) Here are reviews of a few. . . (His amazon link is at the bottom of the reviews)

Book Review: Bloody Mary (Urban Legend) by Drac Von Stroller

4 out of 5 Stars.

I enjoy urban legends. I love reading different version, as I feel each version has a piece of truth.  Bloody Mary is one of my many favorites.

This usually happens when teens want to explore.

I just feel it was a bit short; however, I enjoy that Blood Mary actually communicated with the girls.

Just like the end of the story say . . . research the urban legends and the consequences before mocking the spirits.

 

Book review: The Doll By Drac Von Stroller

3 out 5 Stars

It has good twists and good scare factor. Dolls naturally scared me. I wished there was more of a description of the doll. (I could easily see this doll being with other dolls on Doll Island, but that is another story).

As a reader, I felt like pieces of the story was missing.
I still would like to where the weapon is stored while the horror aspect was not going on.
I know there was magic involved, but I would have liked more back story on how the doll was created.
I felt the warning was also too vague.

I like the motto which be careful what you wish for.

 

 

https://www.amazon.com/Drac-Von-Stoller/e/B008VJB0FG?ref=sr_ntt_srch_lnk_1&qid=1552431139&sr=8-1

 

 

Review: Bloody Mary: A Short Story

Bloody Mary: A Short Story

By Alexis Tiger

I would give 3 out 5 stars. (I know the process of writing a story.)

It was a simple and short story, a very easy and quick read.  It was a bit too short. I kept wanting to turn the page to read what happened next.

I wanted to know the relation to each of the characters, were they friends since 4th grade or neighbors, etc.

However I feel it needed more.  I wanted to know what happened to character after the horror.
The horror and murder description was pretty good. I wanted to know more of what the characters knew about the Legend of Blood Mary. (As each legend varies from place to place.)

Over all, it was a quick and nice read.

If you want a quick horror story based off an Urban Legend, then you should check it out.

https://www.amazon.com/gp/product/B017DLCKYC/ref=dbs_a_def_rwt_bibl_vppi_i2

A Book Review: Sinful Cinderella

As a fellow writer, I try to read as much in my genres as I can. I also try to review books when I can. . .

There was a dark book I got on Amazon that I could not put it down.

“Sinful Cinderella” (Book 1 from Dark Fairy Tale Queen Series) by Anita Valle

I enjoyed the twists and turns and liked the Gothic imaginary.
I look forward to reading the next books in the series.

There are three mottoes from this book . . . 

  1.  “Be careful of what you wish for.”
  2. “It can always be worst.”
  3. “What goes around, comes around.”

This not the the light, sweet Disney version. I happy it is dark and twisted.

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Write about what you know

I’m writing a few scene where my main character meets her favorite author. . . her author gave her tips.

I decided to post these tips. . . I either read about them or experience them myself. . .again write about what you know.

My main character is in Los Angeles and runs into her favorite author, and here are the tips I gave my main character wanting to be a future author.

  1. The first draft is always confusion, and never perfect. (Those who wrote a prefect rough draft, may throw an empty pen.) My first draft is always a chaotic mess. Check out picture above.
  2. Research and outlines or notes are just important because good research really does set up you up to make the best draft you can. Note: you never stop researching, even if you know the subject.)
  3. Write about what you know or are interested in. It will keep you interested if you like what you are writing about.
  4. When it comes to the first draft give yourself a time limit. . . . like 6 to 8 weeks. If you give yourself more than there is a high chance you’ll lose interest. Try to have research and outlines or notes written ahead. (Even if I lost interest, I never throw anything out. I file it away.)
  5. I have better times when I write and other times when I edit. I’m usually most inspired to write between the hours 5 pm to 3 am especially if I am working on horror or paranormal stories. I usually edit the best between the times 8 am and 2 pm.
  6. When I edit and rewrite, I pull apart each scenes and I determine if that scene is important for character building or storyline.
  7. I reread my work out loud while editing.
  8. I give my self goals and rewards for editing, because I hate editing compared to writing.
  9. I keep praises.
  10. I try to criticizing words with a grain of salt. I know not everyone is going to like my work.

Writer’s block again, sigh.

Sorry, I haven’t written much, but my health issues vs clueless doctors have me scattered brained.

My depression and anxiety are high so much that even my muses are mentally flustered. They are taking it out on the office too. I think we’ll have to do a mental remodel.

I’ve tried reading other works, rereading my work, watch movies, listening to music, and playing Sims, but I feel more lost and mentally tangled.

I just hope I feel better next month and get out more.