My Motivation

What’s your motivation?

What inspires you?

What makes you want to get out of bed in the morning?

Why do you do what you do?

 

I got this from this blog

https://cristianmihai.net/2019/05/25/whats-your-motivation/

(I must give credit where credit is do . . . )

My ultimate dream is to a famous author like Stephen King and Anne Rice. I also enjoy the writings of Agatha Christie. I want to make money doing what I love writing horror, paranormal, and thriller novels.

Writing a book does NOT just happen overnight. Draft A usually takes me at least three months as life does not stop while I am writing a novel. I do argue with my muses and characters and sometimes family members. LOL
(Currently I am writing on a folding table that I have to take down every day. I live with family and I do not have a desk, writing area. It’s very frustrating but I put my frustration in my characters; it helps for fight scenes.)

 

There are days I feel like crap (even today with my migraine this afternoon,) and I still write. (over 2000 words so far)
(As I have posted in several blogs. . . I can make a five course meal, clean the entire house, do all of the errands, paid all of the bills and if I did NOT write, I felt as if I did nothing that day.
When I played volleyball as young lady, I had a shirt that said Life is Volleyball! and in small print: Everything else is just stuff. I feel the same way about writing.)

 

To be honest with my health issues, someday I have to force myself to get out of bed. I tell myself that I get to cook and/or write that day and it helps. (I have made myself rewrite chapter 8 of this current project I am doing, because it’s an exciting, dangerous thriller that I believe will make people want to read all three novellas. I plan to write summaries and cover pieces and post them on the blog soon. Something to look forward to this week.)
I may not be a published author today or the next day, but I believe someday in the future some publishing company will publish my work and sell my books! That thought alone gets me out of bed and typing every day.

I do what I do because I love it. I am writer. (At first I thought I was singer, until I was in college when I found out I couldn’t sing one thing and play another because of inner ear issue.

  • However since kindergarten I have been writing and making books for young authors: kindergarten thru fifth grade.
  • During recess, while kids were playing, I was writing, and I had to use a pencil when the weather would get cold as ink does freeze.
  • My first boy-girl party in 8th grade I was sitting in the bushes writing poetry and lyrics.
  • All throughout high school, I was writing short stories, scripts and lyrics.
    I was always meant to be a writer and I will be popular author!)

 

I am inspired by everything from daily life to simply reading another blog like https://cristianmihai.net/2019/05/25/whats-your-motivation/

(By the way, I like reading their blog. They always a piece or two that pulls my attention. )

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Writing Suggestion

First of all, this is not advice, because deep down 90% of people never take the advice when someone gives it anyway.

Secondly, I writing this blog more for myself (self talk), but if it helps others . . . awesome!

My suggestion: Focus on your own writings. 

Do not worry if some self-published writer had 60 novels and three amazon awards.
(It doesn’t make you any less of a writer.) 
Just say congrads and if they have a book give away, read it and see what the hype is. (Note: They might not even be in your genres.)

Write down your goals and dreams and focus on what you want to do for you. 
Be happy when you even get one fan (that is not a friend or family, who would say that you are good no matter what. . . And thank your family for their support and putting up with you. . . you can get cranky interrupted from your writing mode. )
Enjoy the compliments. (Say thank you and focus back into your work)
Use the criticism to help your work. (Remember not everyone is going to enjoy your work. Focus on your target audience, once your figure out who they are.)

Stop comparing your work to others.
Your work is different and your fans enjoy work.

Focus and you can make your dreams come true!

 

First Third of 2019

So far up to date I have 242,413 words written. It averages 1,939 words per day. (My goal is 2,000 words per day and I’m pretty close.)

At this rate if I keep up writing at 1,939 words per day I will be at 707,735 words by the end of the year. (My yearly goal is 750,000 words this year.)

This includes. . . (by not limited to)

  • Novels
  • Rewrites/edits
  • Diary
  • Blogs
  • Lists
  • Stories
  • Emails/chatting(especially storytelling)
  • Notes/research

Note: I try to write everyday even if its just notes, diary entries or lists. However there are some days when I’m just too weak to write. I do try my best to make it up.

Thoughts in my head at 4am

It’s always happen this way . . . it’s 4am in the morning and my brain and my muses will NOT wine down.

It can be any other day when I am not doing anything and they do not want to work either.
However when I have to get up and go to do errands.

My brain just keep going and going.  . . . So many thoughts.

  • Will I ever finish my book if my computer keeps corrupting my files? (Grrr)
  • Why does overheating cause my files to corrupt? (I just do not know why those would even be related. I’m so flustered that I put over a week of work only for it to go to a black screen just at the last line. . . just before I hit save. GRRRR. (I lose a week worth of word count just about 8,000 words, my computer over heated and entire chapter got corrupted. . . GRRRRR)
  • Am I really talented or am I wasting time? (I am torn with this, but then again hours of writing with coffee, soda or tea in my travel mug. . . is my currently bliss. I just would love to be famous or at least Very well known for my written work. I want to be the author if Stephen King and Anne Rice had a kid together. . . I know it sounds weird, but I love both author’s works. I already have three people within the week that are interested in my driving thriller. )
  • Do NaNoWriMo or Camp NaNoWriMo really help? (I mean I push myself for that month to get words in my books, but are they that good? Do I really need to push my novel in so many weeks like Stephen King does? I mean he already has several publisher. . . Why am I even asking myself those questions? It’s my damn anxiety and depression monsters trying to think they are logical, but they are just trying to keep me down so that they get more powerful. Grrrr)
  • Why do I keep getting hit on by guys 50 or older? (I feel like I am the good kid that parents all liked a bit too much.) (It would be really weird the guys 20 years older than me look at me like a healthy sexual being.) Age is a thing to me. . . I would like someone closer to my age. There is a difference between 10 years, defiantly between 20 years. (I mean back when my uncle went to school they had a smoking lounge. Matters, slang, how people look at things all change with time. I have not found anyone 10 years and older that truly understand me.)
  • Why can’t I play Words with Friends (WWF) without getting guys 50 plus who have kids and instantly think I want to fill the void of their dead wife? (I do not want to be a replacement “mommy” while my own body will not allow me to make my own, and the guy my father’s age is having a secret affair with his secretary. I just want to play a game of scramble and beat my highest score of 437. I use words with friends and word scape to keep my brain fresh for my writing and reading skills.)
  • Will I get ever get professionally published? (This does not be self-published to be lost in the amazon.com sea of so-so books. I mean to find a real publisher, agent, and editor on my team to help me sell and promote my book while they have me go from book store to book store signing books while everyone want to know what will happen next in my vampire and ghost series. I need a real publisher and editor. . . I am so overwhelmed. )
  • Will I get a better place and have bigger desk, nicer pc, and cat? (I also want a kitchen, bath tub, and my own recliner. When will this happen?)

 

It’s almost 5 am. . . I think I need to sleep now. . . hopefully dreaming of publishing and getting a nicer place.

Half way Point

It is Day 15 and it is the half way point on Camp NaNoWriMo. I am at 20,688. I defiantly think I will get to my goal 35,000 this month.

I just finished Chapter 7. It’s just at the point where the “Bad Guy” is starting to lose his money and his luck. (Of course this book 3 of 3 Driving Lies trilogy.)  I can’t wait to have the book ended and completely. I really enjoyed writing this story.

The irony of the story is that I created to try to face my fear of driving.  However I think it just made more cautious about who fixes my friends’ and families’ cars.

However I have enjoyed writing a story with two different perspectives.

I hope to get edited and published soon.

I have several people already interested. I am so excited. I feel like a writer, an author! Chair Dance!

Romantic Distraction

Camp NaNoWriMo started April 1st and so far I got 2511 words. . . 

I do not normally post my personal life on this blog, but I am flustered and grateful. 

For Camp NaNo, I am finished a story, I started for NaNoWriMo in 2011. (When I was still with my ex, Tom.) There are some spicy scene between a few of my characters. . . you have to have a dramatic love element in a good thriller.

I will admit I have been lonely lately, as I have not really dated in over a year.

Against my personal blog (http://beckyms1213.wordpress.com) I got back on a few personal sites. (Even if it is just to find some friends, but I am started to believe people are about business or they are fake online.  The real people are actually out living life.)

As much as I love love struggling with the Internet. . . I am just beginning to believe it’s full of distractions and scammers.

I got a personal site and this what I thought was really cute guy messaged me. Of course within ten lines asked for outside chat (like Kik, hang out, or skype.)

Anyway, his answers were long and too poetic. . . they did not feel real so I took a tip from one of my favorite shows “Catfish” and I googled his replies and the first thing can up was a scam site.

So  if you get an answer or text like this. . . (it’s a scammer).

“My ambition is to inspire your beloved woman constantly and stand by my nations I want the peace for the world, to help her to keep the balance between career and private life, just as she would also inspire me to do good. Love is most paramount for me, i need a companion to share my life with, who wants to create a strong family. I want to take long walks with her and share what life has in stall for us both joy and sorrow. I’d like to look up to her as an authority for me, be proud of her, adore her, be supportive, she would have my devotion understanding,kindness, care, calmness, cheerfulness,soul support and my great love. I expect to get all these traits from her too in return, Everyone wants something good for themselves, or don’t you wish yourself well? ”

This was a direct quote I found from a scamming website.
https://www.scamwarners.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=13&t=58426

It sucked because his pics were cute. Oh well, I’m grateful now I can go back my regularly schedule program of working on my Camp NaNoWriMo projects.