I’m trying to take things more seriously

Writing-Confessions

I love to have fun and be a kid at heart, but that is not paying the bills.
I like to think that I am pretty professional on this blog.
I try to use my experience and links I find to help others.
I hope to be encouraging and give other effective tips.

However my audience isn’t that big.
I am not sure how much of difference I am making.
I hope to improve that in 2017.
I also hope to get something published next year.

I seem to give myself goals and yet I get discouraged and dishearten from it and usually fall short.

I refuse to fall short of my goals next year.

I am going to try to take myself and my writings more seriously.

2017 is going to be my year!

NaNaWriMo

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This is the first time in six years I am not going to finish NaNoWriMo. I had 13,955 words.

I had some person issue come to surface, and my novel for (NaNo) is getting put on the back burner. I have been professional advised to change genres (from horror and genre) until I get  my personal issues figured out.

I do feel dishearten and discouraged about it, but I need to focus on some issues and clear out the cobwebs. I will be writing everyday, I was told to which is awesome. I’m just trying my focus.

I hope that next year or even my Camp NaNo I will be ready to write again. 

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I have no stopped writing; in fact, I have been encouraged to keep writing. I will also be keeping this blog going when  I can.

Please keep reading and writing. 

5 minute Rant And Update

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Okay. . . short rant. . . I had two days into NaNoWrimo (3558 words written) and my characters goes it sound better in first person. (Which had changed all of my notes in first person into third person so that I could write in 3rd person.) Wednesday night he goes it sound better and personal in first. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
So last night I tweaked all of my chapter into first person. I also add some stuff and got 1300 extra words.
Now I am at 6217. . . just about 450 words away from today word count which is good. It is staying in first person. 

My boyfriend has been seriously helping me. . . motivating me. I have been getting at least two to three hours in to write every evening.

I need to clean my room, and work on scene list for tonight. So far it has been nice, but I still see things happening this month, and I need to get somewhat a head.

Writing Goals Vs Reality

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My Writing Goals Vs Reality

I just posted that I want 60,000 to 70,000 words by November 30th. https://rebekahquinne.wordpress.com/2016/10/27/nanowrimo-2016-goals/
When in reality, I am barely averaging 500 words per day.

500 times 30 equals 15,000 words (only about 30%)

My problems is I have many more challenges this year. . .

  1. My daily to-do list (Cleaning, and dealing with the cats, but it takes a good portion of the day)*
  2. Errands: Pay bills, shopping, getting things together etc
  3. Getting Interrupted “Becky, do this. . .” “Becky did you do that?” “Becky stand on your head.”etc
  4. Birthdays
  5. Time with my boyfriend
  6. Time with my friends
  7. And a new family member.

 

*Average to-do list. . .

  1. (Get Up)
  2. Feed Dog
  3. Let Dog out
  4. Give Callie (Cat) her heart med
  5. Give Callie her ear med
  6. Give Callie her pain med
  7. Give Elmo (Cat) his special treat for upper respiratory issues.
  8. Feed Outdoor cats
  9. Sweep bathroom
  10. Cat Litter room 1
  11. Cat litter room 2
  12. Take blood sugar
  13. Let Dog out again
  14. Eat
  15. Errands: (can be up to 4 hours we’re gone)
  16. If home, do laundry or clean room or basement
  17. Help with dinner: cook
  18. Eat
  19. Clean kitchen
  20. Feed indoor cats
  21. (I also can add clean bathroom, pet water, food bowls, replace litter etc at least twice each week)

Then if I have everything thing done

  1. Write
  2. Internet
  3. Sleep

 

I just hope I get energy to get everything done.

Pieces of Me

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Pieces of Me

I always try to put pieces of myself into my characters. It may be the same eye color, same height, or same attitude quality. I feel like my characters an my own kids. I help create and develop them, and eventually they take over on the story. Sighs!

If they are not take directly from me them they are based an someone I know or someone who inspires me.
Sometimes the characters have qualities like me, sometimes they are opposite. Either way I may not always agree with my characters, but in the core of each of them, is some kind of piece of me!
On a side note: To be my muse (my inspiration) is a huge compliment . . . I am very picky! If you are offended. . .  I’m sorry you were beautiful and talented, but too greedy and stupid to say “Thanks!” For example: (http://www.gamespot.com/articles/ellen-page-says-naughty-dog-ripped-off-her-likeness/1100-6410610/
http://www.eurogamer.net/articles/2013-06-24-actress-ellen-page-accuses-naughty-dog-of-ripping-off-her-likeness-for-the-last-of-us
Just saying the “Last of Us” video game has won some award, the graphics were awesome, and the story was great. They should have someone else who was less bitter about receive flattery. The video-game that she was working on pissed her off either way.)

 

My Writing Vs Non-Supporters

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Writer Vs Non-supporters

 

It is really hard to write when you live with non-supporters!

 

I’ve been told…

  1. “You write too much!”
  2. “Writing is overrated.”
  3. “Books are going obsolete.”
  4. “Stop writing and do something worth your time!”
  5. “Vampires & ghosts have been overdone.”
  6. “Your grammar sucks!”
  7. “Why try?”
  8. “There is no way you will finish a book.” (This one for reading and writing)
  9. “You are wasting your time!”
  10. “Writing is unstable!”
  11. “You cannot make money from writing!”
  12. “If you have no money, then you might as well quit mow. You cannot write a book without money.”

It’s hard to win get started when you feel like you are set up to fail. They made me feel like a failure, and like I will never succeed. How do I know if I can climb the mountain, unless I try to climb it first?
This does not help my depression and anxiety that they know I have. I also get mix emotions when they get me a computer with a pen with it, but complain whom I am on it too much . . .go figure!

There is something I have learned (beside my hatred for cleaning) . . . I’ve learned that I can clean the whole house: make everything freaking sparkle, make a seven course meal, serve the meal to lots of guests (which also makes me anxious) and do errands, clean up after those guests, and pay all of the bills…  BUT if I did NOT write that day, I felt unproductive!

To me writing isn’t just telling a story to someone:

  1. It is expressing myself and giving the readers a little piece of me.
  2. It’s also my therapy as page listens way better than most noisy people.
  3. It is also my escape and my hope.
  4. It is my creation.

To those who do NOT support me writing, then you do NOT know me. I’m a good person, and I have been writing for over 25 years; I do NOT think it is a waste. Then you might as well say that all of my education was a waste too, and I think it was not. If you want to drop me, leave and stop supporting me, fine. I’m sorry for lost, but not the fact that you’ll probably be victims in my next novels . . . * evil laugh with lighting in the background*

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