Distraction: Worry

I have to give blood tomorrow. . . for A1C which a diabetes tests and yet I know my A1C which was 6.5 (boarderline diabeteic) but being over a year and half I can easily see it an 8. . . I don’t get salads and healthier food as often as I like. I also know that there creamers I use have sugar in them. However I enjoy my caffeine and sugar and with out them, I would not have the energy to do day to day activities. (My CPAP machine is doing nothing for me, but making me stiff. Sigh)

My phone is dying. . . My government piece of crap tract phone (which I like better than most smart nosy phones) is on its very last leg, but with the government off. . . It turns off. I can only talk through speaker phone. I have to turn it all the way up (Volume) to hear the ringer. (It’s almost 4 years old and have been dropped countless times.
The phone decided to tell me it was not working just before I called for a ride tomorrow as we have to do laundry, shopping, pick up meds, pick up dinner, and I need to take blood. Friday is always our errand and very busy day. I usually do not want write that much on Friday unless I have extra energy. (I laugh hard with that one.)

I keep getting easily distracted . . . I am two big scenes from finishing my short stories, I wanted to finish two weeks ago, but I keep getting distracted.  Neighbor keep coming over (which I am very thankful for pizza), we have to do errands, weather issues, phone issues, health issues (exhausted, pain, and just feeling sad and blah.) TV show distract me, Twitter, and kindred (reading a story of very interesting version of Cinderella and I will post a review on there and here. ) I also keep trying to organize pictures as I have them in six different locations. I also keep thinking I’m lonely as the winter weather keeps making me blue and miss someone simply just to talk to., so no I am on stupid dating sites. (I also keep getting people I’m not really into 9 times out 10 as they are into more intimate stuff. I’m not.)

I NEED TO FOCUS. I hope to finish that story by this weekend at the very last and will post all parts by Sunday on my wattpad.com

https://www.wattpad.com/user/RebekahQuinne

Spiritual: Writing is my Bliss

I don’t normally go into the spiritual element of writing, but as many of you has read, writing is my entire world.

I am spiritual and I have a spiritual blog to explain my ideas and gratefulness and such. (http://spiritualbeck.wordpress.com )

However there a few moments in which I see that my writing moments and spiritual moment cross paths. This is one of them . . .

I like to believe in higher beings, whether is Karma, Fate, God(s), Goddess (es). . . I believe that they know you’re path and purpose. (Yes, believe it or not EVERYONE HAS A PURPOSE and A STORY.) It’s very weird when I see that my writing is part of my spiritual path.

I love writing about ghosts, vampires, living vs dead etc. So I like to believe that even my writing will come back to haunt me like a good ghost story should.

I found pieces of my second vampire book. I have been writing this book off and on since 2014, and life has gotten in the way. However it is one of my main goals this year to have book two finished by Dec 31^st 2019. My main character grew up in a Monastery . . .  so I am dealing with a vampire who has been fighting a lot of morals. I feel like I am fighting with him, so I can easily get stuck, but I have pieces here and there so many I believe have the book in front of me, I just now need to put it together.

I wrote three parts in 2014 (probably during NaNoWriMo) and I’m now rereading it only see that my main character is going through similar issues that I am. . . I really feel it’s the fate putting my writing on my spiritual path for a reason.

I was going to be working on my Driving Lies, but plans changed now it will be Book 2 of my vampire series, Daris.

I’m just happy to be writing again, in my purest element.

Weird Amusing Bumps

I have been on a some very weird, amusing bumps on my current writing path.

I normally write about ghost stories, vampire luring karmic victims, abandoned places, and urban legends. I enjoy the horror, the dark lust, the karmic justice, and just the decent history of a good ghost story. Why did the dark evil beings simply become that way . . .

However lately my muses have me writing a light mystery romance.
I’m not sure why? I think I am the least romantic person I know.
I’m practical. . . I rather have a bouquet of pens or candy, not flowers. I HATE to dress up. I refuse to wear make-up or heels.

 If a guy can’t accept me for me, then he can just go away. (I don’t need another disappointment in my life.)

 

I’m getting off my point. I’m working on a romance story, kind of.  However my characters are on two different paths, which is not really a problem I am worried about. BUT. . .   I had to write a scene in which I argued with muses and tried for days to avoid. I had to kill my main female character’s cat. (I’m a huge cat lover and yet my muses said: the cat escaped, things like that happen, and it to build my characters closer.)

I did finally caved in. I didn’t let my muses get detailed thank God, but it was a simple phone call that I toyed over for days. Once I let my muses take over, it was written in less than hour and the band-aid was off and the main male character comforted her.

However has this happened to other writers? Have you avoid muses or a scene because it simply made you feel bad or comfortable?

 

I feel I am growing as writer and simply as person for facing it. I feel I am looking at it from the villain and hero perspective.

Maybe I’m practicing romance for scenes in my vampire novels., fanged monsters can love too.

Note: I do plan to post this light mystery romance story on my wattpadd. (Links on my pinned blog page)

 

Make Me Scared

I have written several type of genres. My muses take me in all kind of directions. . .

However my first love in writing is horror: paranormal. I enjoyed being scared. It makes your heart pump faster, the adrenaline runs through your veins, and when you come out of it, you are very grateful to be truly alive.

I was going through my active twitter www.twitter.com/rebekah1213 and I found one of my favorite admirable celebrities www.twitter.com.com/Michaelrosenbum and he was mentioning horror movies. Paraphrasing he feels a horror movie should scare, entertain or be fun. (Note: I think the “fun” scary movies should have their own topic.)

I feel there needs to be a good paranormal story (give me some good history), and true scare factor (I want to scream and jump).

It would be an excellent movie if I can NOT predict the next moves. I want a movie that does NOT have the clichés in it.

(Note: I am not a huge slasher fan.)

Movies on his list I agree with

• Pet Cemetery
• The Shinning
• Insidious
• Candy Man
• The Amityville Horror
• Poltergeist
• Nightmare on Elm Street
• Child’s Play
• Orphan
• The Omen
• The Texas Chainsaw Massacre 1 (I freaked out with 2 as well)
• 30 days of Night
• Silence of the Lambs

 

Movies that really scare me (Not on his list)

• The Storm of the Century
• Christine
• Night of the Living Dead
• The Saw series
• Hostel 1 and 2 (Can you believe people can do that?)
• The Wrong Turn (Most of them )
• The Farm House

 

Movies with scary elements (There are problems with story or it’s just not scary enough all of the way through)

• Psycho
• Interview with a Vampire (To me it was a bit more tame than my vampires)
• Urban Legends
• Ghost Ship
• Rose Red (I really liked the story)
• 1408 (Short Story was awesome)
• HousehhHouse of Wax
• Split ( I needed more story with each personality)

 

Note: There was a contest for Independent horror called the 8 of 8 . . . the top 8 would be shown at a horror movie festival. There were some of those that were pretty good for independent.

I’m still waiting for that ultimate scary movie: awesome story line, avoid clichés, and unpredictable scary movie. Please make me jump and scream in my seat. I want to hold my seat and be afraid to look at the windows or answer my door. (Yes, it’s all in my head, but sometimes simply being scared is just fun.)

 

 

 

Trying (Distraction)

It seems ever since I declared: I’m not looking for someone at the moment and  I am focusing on me and my work. . .  guys have been coming out of the woodwork to hit on me.  (I do NOT not want face-time, I do not want to exchange numbers, I do NOT want to meet, especially when I don’t know you, and I will NOT get naughty on the first meeting. I am NOT a catfish, I am a very real BBW female, but I just do not want a relationship at this moment.)

I’m NOT in a phase of my life to be ready to deal in a relationship.  I mention this in my other blog http://beckyms1213blog.wordpress.com/

If you want to be friends, then keep it online right now. Message me, and I will message you when I can. 

I got an extender as told my my landlord, but then I found out that other clients are over using the wifi so by the time it hits my extender, I barely have internet at all. Sigh.
It took me 25 minutes to post a twitter yesterday, and over two hours to get this blog set up. GRRR.

So right now since my computer works, I plan to focus on my writings. I am a writer; it’s my happiness.

Just for those out there messaging me over and over, it will not change my mind, and I need to focus on me. You WILL NOT change my mind.

If you are a reader, please use my links on my pinned Blog and HAPPY READING!

2018 Vs 2019

In 2018 I did the following. . .

1. Written over 200 blogs
2. Written over 500,000 words (552, 946 words to be exact)
3. My computer was down most of the year, so I wrote most of my novels by hand and used tablets for my blogs.
4. I wrote entire diary
5. Acoomplished by Camp NaNoWriMo and NaNoWriMo in Novmeber (with gout)

 

In 2019, I want to. . .

1. I want something published.
2. Write 12 fanfiction stories (https://www.fanfiction.net/~rebekahwriter13/ )
3. Write 12 Short stories for Wattpadd (https://www.wattpad.com/user/RebekahQuinne )
4. Write 300 blogs this year (Links to my blogs here: https://rebekahquinne.wordpress.com/2018/09/04/links-to-my-pages-4/ )
5. Finish these several projects
   • Crimson Shadow Collection: Book 2:Daris
   • Driving Lies Book 3 Typed
   • Driving Lies Books 1-3 Edit