I should be writing 

I should be writing. . . 

I’ve had a lot of things happen this past two weeks and I should get them out. 

Maybe write a short story or two.

Maybe a list of problems and goals . . . Pros and cons.

Yesterday, I got new pens and notebook that are just sitting in the corner just collecting dust. 

I just have no motivation, no pep, and I even feel I’m so depressed I’m bumming out my muses. It sucks. 

I should just say fuck the world and write. 

Camp NaNoWriMo Day 1

So far  . . . So good. . . I am also at the 1200 word mark. . . I need to write an average of 1500 words per day. I think with all of my blogs, stories, poems, diaries, projects, and my current inspiration. . . I can get at least 1500 words. I am hoping for more. I would love to get at least 2,000 words per day by the end of the month. I am starting with an hour per day and so far I have reach that today . . . hour 1 done.

http://campnanowrimo.org/campers/rebekah1213/stats these are my stats and profile so far. . .


I have goals on this site . . .
7 hours week one.
8 ¾ hours week two.
10 ½ hours week three.
14 hours week four.
This equals to just about 40.25 hours this month . . . plus two extra days.

Day one . . . I am off to a really good start. I will have 1500 words, and I have already been working over an hour.

Whose with Who?

When I read a book or watch a movie  I have to like or be interested in the character. . .  These links and blog is all about my experience with characters. . .


I have many fictional/celebrity crushes. . .

Characters I’ve liked in the past. . .



I even had a crush on of my characters that I created named Lyric. Physically he was everything I wanted in a guy, but he was jerk. He only really cared about himself. . . I really want to reedit that book, because I was so stuck on him that my book has a section of him and my main female character Lucy. Lucy was supposed to be with Valin . . . not Lyric. Lucy and I both are draw to Lyric, so I might write a few stories about them or make The Whispering Path into a Trilogy. . . It just depends on what my muses want to do with it.


This is inspired by one of my first celebrity crushes. . . Jonathan Brandis (RIP)



Some links for my Fanfiction. . .  (I write when I get stuck with my own work.)







I’m Not Where I want to be. . .

I’m 33 . . . I am living with my family (again, I am very grateful). I just got out of an eight year relationship in which my ex only cared about himself and I got really sick. Then he changed and cheated on me twice and left me for another girl. I went back to my family (father’s side). My father causes more stress and anxiety for me, because I don’t do things his way.
I miss doing things my way even if I had to live with a jackass. I sometimes liked eating at 10 at night or dishes at 3 and playing my music whenever. Making food I want (although the food he is really awesome.) I like buying pop and knowing I still have some. I like waking up when I want and going to bed when I want, because I wanted to do so.
At first, I thought I would want a family. I know now I am not the type for kids (they were pushed on me at such a young age.) I want a guy who loves me for me.
Honestly, I thought by now I would be selling many of my books, going on book and lecture tours. I thought my books would be bigger than Twilight.
I just feel like a failure. I feel like am a mental mess. I have nothing and I feel like nothing!

Overall, I just want to be happy.

Things for 2016

2016 is going to be awesome! Goals: More writing, more art, and more blogging!

Yes, electrifying things are happening for 2016! I hope you are as enthusiastic as I am…

  • I hope to release two books this year.
  • I hope to get back into a serious writing schedule.
  • I hope to have a yearly word count of 500,000. A half of a million words by December 3l, 20l6-
  • I will constantly try to keep writing!
  • I also hope to send out encouragement to my fellow writers.