I am participating in the Writing Contest: You are Enough, hosted by Positive Writer.

 

Hello. I’m Rebekah Quinne. I’m a horror, paranormal, and thriller writer.

Some background on me: I started to write for myself in fifth grade. Most of my favorite teachers are English teachers. They have always encouraged me to read and write and in doing so, I found of a love of writing. I mean while other kids were outside at recess playing kick ball or causing drama of who liked who, I was writing.  Even in high school, I always had extra note notebook and always had at least one writing project in my head.

 

Every writer has problems and issues. I fight my demons (my doubts) while I write. . . Common arguments. . .

“What is the point?”

  • The point is that I love to write. I can clean the entire house, make three course meal, do all of our errands in one day, and if I do not write, then I do not feel productive. My day is down when I have writer’s block for a day; but I feel I’m just wasting time if I have several days of writer’ block. I feel like there is a void of me, if I do not write.
  • It is my escape. Sometime a day is simply boring: you get up, get coffee, work, come home, clean, sleep and do it all over again. When I write, I can do anything: mountain climb, fly, have a pet shark etc.
  • I’m a story teller, and I always have a story to tell. I believe I was a bard in another life (I am also musically inclined). I am creative and love expressing myself with all art, especially writing. When I write, I am god: I love to create characters, worlds, problems, and drama. I decide if the day is sunny, if there is tornado, or if one of my characters falls in love, or even dies. I love having the creative control.
    I also put myself in my creation, each character I make has some element of me. So in some way, by reading my work, you are seeing into pieces of my soul.

 

 “You’re not good enough!” They fight that I will never be like Stephen King, Anne Rice, J. K. Rowling etc.

The truth is you never know until you simply try. I have no idea if I’m truly good enough until I write, edit, and get my books out there.
The best thing I can do is simply try. I cannot hit a homerun, unless I get up to the plate.

 

“You’re only going to get rejected!”

I had a good friend of mine told me that I had get my work out there. He had been rejected several times, but I knew his work was good. You just have to dust off and reapply to someone else.

Stephen King’s Carrie got rejected over 10 or 30 times (I hear different numbers.)

J.K. Rowling was rejected 12 times with Harry Potter.

Anne Rice was rejected 5 times with Interview with a Vampire.

Here is a link of many authors that and even the greatest books have gotten rejected.

https://www.buzzfeed.com/stmartinspress/20-brilliant-authors-whose-work-was-initially-reje-7rut

 

“You write too much!”

Ha. Ha! There is NO such thing as a writer writing too much! I know even if I overwrite, I can always cut down in the edit.

There is not enough time in the day to get out all of the things that are in my head.

 

Just a few pieces of advice. . .

  • I get easily distracted, especially by the Internet. So when I want to write, I try to go to place with no wifi or I turn my wifi off.
  • During moments when I am struggling on a scene, I simply go to a scene in which I want to write or I start with a strong scene. I used to think that I have to write book from beginning to ending, but that is not how my muses work. Sometimes I get pieces, and I have to rewrite scenes to make the pieces work.
  • As much as I like to write alone, I have learned that writing in a group or with a partner can be just as much fun. I have several friends that have kept me creative, taught me how to write decent twists, and how to be a better person and better writer. I love playing RPGs and role-playing online with my friends as they keep my mind working and my ideas fresh. So I cannot say that my writing process is completely solo. I also ask my friends for opinions on scenes or chapters in my novels, as I feel they are going to be honest with me. I appreciate that I have creative and honest friends who encourage my writing.
  • My other suggestion is read, especially the genre you are writing. It can be inspiring and it can show you want publisher want.
  • I agree with Anne Rice write about what hurts and what pleasures you. http://youtube.com/watch?v=bw2KXX7WrOY

 

Writing is every day journey in which I have greatly enjoyed—I have killed a lot of pens and used a pages, but I feel the world needs more readers, writers, and storytellers.

I hope with my stories, I can make the future readers laugh, cry, be entertained, and most of all, turn the page.

Please enjoy my blog: I keep update on here of my writings and I have links to all of my blogs and other works.

Please keep reading and enjoy.

Rebekah Quinne.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Word Challenge update

Last Saturday, July 20th, I participate in a the 10k in 24 hour word writing challenge.

I read about from this blog, https://abookhavenx.wordpress.com/2019/07/15/write-10k-in-a-day/

I did not get 10 k, but I got 5,845 words on my thriller novel trilogy. I am almost finished with book, the first draft of the thriller trilogy and I got caught up with my Camp Nanowrimo word count.

I had been fighting depression and home issues, so I was behind. I think because of that challenge will get my goal 30k word count this month.

Its 23 and I have about seven days. . . my two goals are reaching my 30,000 word count and finishing my novel.

I really think I can do this and when I do I redye my hair purple again. Yay.

Camp NaNoUpdate

I have been dealing with anxiety and depression, and it has been very hard on my body and mind. This means my writing has been suffering.

I have changed my project from Family project to short stories. . . If an idea inspires me, then I write it down. Then I just accumulate the word count of each story. I might post some on my flash fiction blog. . . http://rqshortstories.wordpress.com

I am also not pushing myself. (I had one break down and lost entire weekend to depression, reoccurring mono and sleep.)

I gave myself 30,000 words as a goal. If I make it, awesome. If I do not make it, then I can try again in November.

I hope just get some decent stories written, at this point word count is as it is.

I love writing; in fact, I believe it’s what I live for.

However I fight with depression, anxiety, PTSD, and now I am learning PCOS (it’s a female things, I am 90% of all of the symptoms.)

I get easily frustrated when I can’t get all of the things I want to done, because my depression, or anxiety instantly drained me. I would love to use my writing to release my negativity, but there are days were I can barely get out of bed or pick up a pen. (I’m currently in a living situation where my computer and sleep Cpap machine are taking up the same space. I have to take one down to put the other one up.)

Last week, I finished chapter 8 after I had to rewrite it (because I had a corrupted file.)  My depression and anxiety just did not let me enjoy my accomplishment. I just wish I can get rid of the negative feelings.

I give myself goal and they usually get blown out of proportion because something happens: doctor appointment goes wrong, my female issues come up (and drain me so bad I do not get out bed for days) or extra errands. I have learned that at times if I do too much that day, my writing (goals) suffer.

I wish I could focus primarily on my writing, but I cannot until I take care of my health and get a better place.

 

This does NOT mean I will stop writing, but I just realized that things will probably slow down, because even today, I had a horrible migraine in my eyes and the humidity just made it worst. I just wanted to write and I know my family is going to want the lights off. Grrr.

I just hope to post more blogs, short stories, and the last two chapters of third installment on  my thriller trilogy set.

I even made a new instagram account Rebekah Quinne Instagram

Writing Suggestion

First of all, this is not advice, because deep down 90% of people never take the advice when someone gives it anyway.

Secondly, I writing this blog more for myself (self talk), but if it helps others . . . awesome!

My suggestion: Focus on your own writings. 

Do not worry if some self-published writer had 60 novels and three amazon awards.
(It doesn’t make you any less of a writer.) 
Just say congrads and if they have a book give away, read it and see what the hype is. (Note: They might not even be in your genres.)

Write down your goals and dreams and focus on what you want to do for you. 
Be happy when you even get one fan (that is not a friend or family, who would say that you are good no matter what. . . And thank your family for their support and putting up with you. . . you can get cranky interrupted from your writing mode. )
Enjoy the compliments. (Say thank you and focus back into your work)
Use the criticism to help your work. (Remember not everyone is going to enjoy your work. Focus on your target audience, once your figure out who they are.)

Stop comparing your work to others.
Your work is different and your fans enjoy work.

Focus and you can make your dreams come true!

 

First Third of 2019

So far up to date I have 242,413 words written. It averages 1,939 words per day. (My goal is 2,000 words per day and I’m pretty close.)

At this rate if I keep up writing at 1,939 words per day I will be at 707,735 words by the end of the year. (My yearly goal is 750,000 words this year.)

This includes. . . (by not limited to)

  • Novels
  • Rewrites/edits
  • Diary
  • Blogs
  • Lists
  • Stories
  • Emails/chatting(especially storytelling)
  • Notes/research

Note: I try to write everyday even if its just notes, diary entries or lists. However there are some days when I’m just too weak to write. I do try my best to make it up.

Thoughts in my head at 4am

It’s always happen this way . . . it’s 4am in the morning and my brain and my muses will NOT wine down.

It can be any other day when I am not doing anything and they do not want to work either.
However when I have to get up and go to do errands.

My brain just keep going and going.  . . . So many thoughts.

  • Will I ever finish my book if my computer keeps corrupting my files? (Grrr)
  • Why does overheating cause my files to corrupt? (I just do not know why those would even be related. I’m so flustered that I put over a week of work only for it to go to a black screen just at the last line. . . just before I hit save. GRRRR. (I lose a week worth of word count just about 8,000 words, my computer over heated and entire chapter got corrupted. . . GRRRRR)
  • Am I really talented or am I wasting time? (I am torn with this, but then again hours of writing with coffee, soda or tea in my travel mug. . . is my currently bliss. I just would love to be famous or at least Very well known for my written work. I want to be the author if Stephen King and Anne Rice had a kid together. . . I know it sounds weird, but I love both author’s works. I already have three people within the week that are interested in my driving thriller. )
  • Do NaNoWriMo or Camp NaNoWriMo really help? (I mean I push myself for that month to get words in my books, but are they that good? Do I really need to push my novel in so many weeks like Stephen King does? I mean he already has several publisher. . . Why am I even asking myself those questions? It’s my damn anxiety and depression monsters trying to think they are logical, but they are just trying to keep me down so that they get more powerful. Grrrr)
  • Why do I keep getting hit on by guys 50 or older? (I feel like I am the good kid that parents all liked a bit too much.) (It would be really weird the guys 20 years older than me look at me like a healthy sexual being.) Age is a thing to me. . . I would like someone closer to my age. There is a difference between 10 years, defiantly between 20 years. (I mean back when my uncle went to school they had a smoking lounge. Matters, slang, how people look at things all change with time. I have not found anyone 10 years and older that truly understand me.)
  • Why can’t I play Words with Friends (WWF) without getting guys 50 plus who have kids and instantly think I want to fill the void of their dead wife? (I do not want to be a replacement “mommy” while my own body will not allow me to make my own, and the guy my father’s age is having a secret affair with his secretary. I just want to play a game of scramble and beat my highest score of 437. I use words with friends and word scape to keep my brain fresh for my writing and reading skills.)
  • Will I get ever get professionally published? (This does not be self-published to be lost in the amazon.com sea of so-so books. I mean to find a real publisher, agent, and editor on my team to help me sell and promote my book while they have me go from book store to book store signing books while everyone want to know what will happen next in my vampire and ghost series. I need a real publisher and editor. . . I am so overwhelmed. )
  • Will I get a better place and have bigger desk, nicer pc, and cat? (I also want a kitchen, bath tub, and my own recliner. When will this happen?)

 

It’s almost 5 am. . . I think I need to sleep now. . . hopefully dreaming of publishing and getting a nicer place.