Writing Suggestion

First of all, this is not advice, because deep down 90% of people never take the advice when someone gives it anyway.

Secondly, I writing this blog more for myself (self talk), but if it helps others . . . awesome!

My suggestion: Focus on your own writings. 

Do not worry if some self-published writer had 60 novels and three amazon awards.
(It doesn’t make you any less of a writer.) 
Just say congrads and if they have a book give away, read it and see what the hype is. (Note: They might not even be in your genres.)

Write down your goals and dreams and focus on what you want to do for you. 
Be happy when you even get one fan (that is not a friend or family, who would say that you are good no matter what. . . And thank your family for their support and putting up with you. . . you can get cranky interrupted from your writing mode. )
Enjoy the compliments. (Say thank you and focus back into your work)
Use the criticism to help your work. (Remember not everyone is going to enjoy your work. Focus on your target audience, once your figure out who they are.)

Stop comparing your work to others.
Your work is different and your fans enjoy work.

Focus and you can make your dreams come true!

 

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First Third of 2019

So far up to date I have 242,413 words written. It averages 1,939 words per day. (My goal is 2,000 words per day and I’m pretty close.)

At this rate if I keep up writing at 1,939 words per day I will be at 707,735 words by the end of the year. (My yearly goal is 750,000 words this year.)

This includes. . . (by not limited to)

  • Novels
  • Rewrites/edits
  • Diary
  • Blogs
  • Lists
  • Stories
  • Emails/chatting(especially storytelling)
  • Notes/research

Note: I try to write everyday even if its just notes, diary entries or lists. However there are some days when I’m just too weak to write. I do try my best to make it up.

Thoughts in my head at 4am

It’s always happen this way . . . it’s 4am in the morning and my brain and my muses will NOT wine down.

It can be any other day when I am not doing anything and they do not want to work either.
However when I have to get up and go to do errands.

My brain just keep going and going.  . . . So many thoughts.

  • Will I ever finish my book if my computer keeps corrupting my files? (Grrr)
  • Why does overheating cause my files to corrupt? (I just do not know why those would even be related. I’m so flustered that I put over a week of work only for it to go to a black screen just at the last line. . . just before I hit save. GRRRR. (I lose a week worth of word count just about 8,000 words, my computer over heated and entire chapter got corrupted. . . GRRRRR)
  • Am I really talented or am I wasting time? (I am torn with this, but then again hours of writing with coffee, soda or tea in my travel mug. . . is my currently bliss. I just would love to be famous or at least Very well known for my written work. I want to be the author if Stephen King and Anne Rice had a kid together. . . I know it sounds weird, but I love both author’s works. I already have three people within the week that are interested in my driving thriller. )
  • Do NaNoWriMo or Camp NaNoWriMo really help? (I mean I push myself for that month to get words in my books, but are they that good? Do I really need to push my novel in so many weeks like Stephen King does? I mean he already has several publisher. . . Why am I even asking myself those questions? It’s my damn anxiety and depression monsters trying to think they are logical, but they are just trying to keep me down so that they get more powerful. Grrrr)
  • Why do I keep getting hit on by guys 50 or older? (I feel like I am the good kid that parents all liked a bit too much.) (It would be really weird the guys 20 years older than me look at me like a healthy sexual being.) Age is a thing to me. . . I would like someone closer to my age. There is a difference between 10 years, defiantly between 20 years. (I mean back when my uncle went to school they had a smoking lounge. Matters, slang, how people look at things all change with time. I have not found anyone 10 years and older that truly understand me.)
  • Why can’t I play Words with Friends (WWF) without getting guys 50 plus who have kids and instantly think I want to fill the void of their dead wife? (I do not want to be a replacement “mommy” while my own body will not allow me to make my own, and the guy my father’s age is having a secret affair with his secretary. I just want to play a game of scramble and beat my highest score of 437. I use words with friends and word scape to keep my brain fresh for my writing and reading skills.)
  • Will I get ever get professionally published? (This does not be self-published to be lost in the amazon.com sea of so-so books. I mean to find a real publisher, agent, and editor on my team to help me sell and promote my book while they have me go from book store to book store signing books while everyone want to know what will happen next in my vampire and ghost series. I need a real publisher and editor. . . I am so overwhelmed. )
  • Will I get a better place and have bigger desk, nicer pc, and cat? (I also want a kitchen, bath tub, and my own recliner. When will this happen?)

 

It’s almost 5 am. . . I think I need to sleep now. . . hopefully dreaming of publishing and getting a nicer place.

Romantic Distraction

Camp NaNoWriMo started April 1st and so far I got 2511 words. . . 

I do not normally post my personal life on this blog, but I am flustered and grateful. 

For Camp NaNo, I am finished a story, I started for NaNoWriMo in 2011. (When I was still with my ex, Tom.) There are some spicy scene between a few of my characters. . . you have to have a dramatic love element in a good thriller.

I will admit I have been lonely lately, as I have not really dated in over a year.

Against my personal blog (http://beckyms1213.wordpress.com) I got back on a few personal sites. (Even if it is just to find some friends, but I am started to believe people are about business or they are fake online.  The real people are actually out living life.)

As much as I love love struggling with the Internet. . . I am just beginning to believe it’s full of distractions and scammers.

I got a personal site and this what I thought was really cute guy messaged me. Of course within ten lines asked for outside chat (like Kik, hang out, or skype.)

Anyway, his answers were long and too poetic. . . they did not feel real so I took a tip from one of my favorite shows “Catfish” and I googled his replies and the first thing can up was a scam site.

So  if you get an answer or text like this. . . (it’s a scammer).

“My ambition is to inspire your beloved woman constantly and stand by my nations I want the peace for the world, to help her to keep the balance between career and private life, just as she would also inspire me to do good. Love is most paramount for me, i need a companion to share my life with, who wants to create a strong family. I want to take long walks with her and share what life has in stall for us both joy and sorrow. I’d like to look up to her as an authority for me, be proud of her, adore her, be supportive, she would have my devotion understanding,kindness, care, calmness, cheerfulness,soul support and my great love. I expect to get all these traits from her too in return, Everyone wants something good for themselves, or don’t you wish yourself well? ”

This was a direct quote I found from a scamming website.
https://www.scamwarners.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=13&t=58426

It sucked because his pics were cute. Oh well, I’m grateful now I can go back my regularly schedule program of working on my Camp NaNoWriMo projects.

 

Editing Almost Over

Camp NaNoWriMo is almost here. . .

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I have three hours of editing left and between tonight and tomorrow I will get it done.

However I feel I barely touched my novel. I think I will need to rewrite and edit in May. Hopefully by then I will have two projects to edit.

There are some day where I could focus, and get hours of editing done.

Then there were times where I was completely distracted with yoworld, words with friends, and frustration over weak bi-polar wifi.

I learned it’s hard to put a headset on and edit as I have read and reread my pieces.

I wish I had money for someone else to edit for me.

Just less than 25 hours for Camp NaNoWriMo. Yay. 

However 50 hours of editing is nothing to complain about. . . I cut out a lot of my story and rewriting to make it more of the ghosts then of therapy.
Version A was my therapy. Version B and up were my paranormal story. 

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Revising my writing and myself

Have you ever reread a piece of your own writing and asked yourself any one of the following. .

  • What was I thinking when I wrote that?
  • What was I trying to say?
  • Why did I just repeat myself?
  • Why didn’t I give enough information?
  • Where was I going with that?
  • Why did I use the cliché?
  • Was I trying to piss my audience off?

The last one made me laugh.

The thing I have learned like any art that writing is never truly finished. There is always a tweak or change an author can make . . . it was will turn the story completely different.

I also noticed that version A never looks like or sounds like version ZZZ.

However I have found a piece of editing that I do like that is when I get to rewrite. My problem from this when I am trying to subtract word from my lengthy novels . . . when I rewrite I usually add even more. I need to learn how to describe things in a condensed and efficient way.

My other issues when I leave words out from typing too much. I have to read and reread to catch the words that are missing.

I hope someday to be well-do enough to get a professional editor to look over my work. It really needs it.

Make Me Scared

I have written several type of genres. My muses take me in all kind of directions. . .

However my first love in writing is horror: paranormal. I enjoyed being scared. It makes your heart pump faster, the adrenaline runs through your veins, and when you come out of it, you are very grateful to be truly alive.

I was going through my active twitter www.twitter.com/rebekah1213 and I found one of my favorite admirable celebrities www.twitter.com.com/Michaelrosenbum and he was mentioning horror movies. Paraphrasing he feels a horror movie should scare, entertain or be fun. (Note: I think the “fun” scary movies should have their own topic.)

I feel there needs to be a good paranormal story (give me some good history), and true scare factor (I want to scream and jump).

It would be an excellent movie if I can NOT predict the next moves. I want a movie that does NOT have the clichés in it.

(Note: I am not a huge slasher fan.)

Movies on his list I agree with

  • Pet Cemetery
  • The Shinning
  • Insidious
  • Candy Man
  • The Amityville Horror
  • Poltergeist
  • Nightmare on Elm Street
  • Child’s Play
  • Orphan
  • The Omen
  • The Texas Chainsaw Massacre 1 (I freaked out with 2 as well)
  • 30 days of Night
  • Silence of the Lambs

 

Movies that really scare me (Not on his list)

  • The Storm of the Century
  • Christine
  • Night of the Living Dead
  • The Saw series
  • Hostel 1 and 2 (Can you believe people can do that?)
  • The Wrong Turn (Most of them )
  • The Farm House

 

Movies with scary elements (There are problems with story or it’s just not scary enough all of the way through)

  • Psycho
  • Interview with a Vampire (To me it was a bit more tame than my vampires)
  • Urban Legends
  • Ghost Ship
  • Rose Red (I really liked the story)
  • 1408 (Short Story was awesome)
  • HousehhHouse of Wax
  • Split ( I needed more story with each personality)

 

Note: There was a contest for Independent horror called the 8 of 8 . . . the top 8 would be shown at a horror movie festival. There were some of those that were pretty good for independent.

I’m still waiting for that ultimate scary movie: awesome story line, avoid clichés, and unpredictable scary movie. Please make me jump and scream in my seat. I want to hold my seat and be afraid to look at the windows or answer my door. (Yes, it’s all in my head, but sometimes simply being scared is just fun.)