2019 Vs 2020

Day is 1-1-2020. (1 1 2020.. . .it’s cool)

Anyway. . . I have learned that I didn’t accomplish as many of my writing goals that I wanted to . . . My Blog 2018 Vs 2019

However I have been working on me. . . . my health, and some other personal projects. I do want to publish more than anything, but if I am not healthy and strong, I cannot get anything decent out on screen. (I finally got a cpap machine and more oxygen when I sleep does wonders for my energy level, but it took months to get patterns working.)

I also had participated in NaNoWriMo this year, but I did not get the goal of 50,000 words. . . I barely made 30 or 35K. . . However I did achieve my writing goals for both Camp NaNoWriMo this year. . . I have had writer’s block since mid-November. . . I just lost steam. (However I am very grateful for a good friend of mine that has been keeping my writing brain working with our own fun, creative stories.)

I did manage manage to get 136, 975 words more this year than last year. . .

2019 final word count was 689, 921 (Just 61,079 short of my hopeful goal of 750,000 words.)

I wrote 155 blogs this year. . .  (I wanted to write 300 blogs, but I focused on several novels this year and my health which took up more time and energy than planned.)
The links to all of my blogs are on here. . . I have my link list pinned to the top of this blog. I also wrote stories on wattpadd. I hope to write a few more this year.

I didn’t publish anything, but I did finish my Thriller trilogy Driving Lies. I have been working with fellow writing friends and beta readers.

I also realized that I have found a new love. . . coffee with fancy creamers in it.  (because of this, I have cut back majority on my soda intake. However I still love Pepsi too just not as much. . . between cutting back and the walks I take, I have lost 17 pounds. Yay!)

Goals I have for 2020. . .

  • I want to read more. I will make a list of books and stories, I want to read soon.
  • I want  to write more and post on my blogs and writing sites like wattpadd.
  • I want to research publishers.
  • I need to edit and get Driving Lies out for more readers.
  • I need to finish book 2 of my Vampire or work on Book 4 and 5 which the vampire war.
  • I have better writing patterns and no more writer’s block!

 

Nanowrimo 2019

It’s November 22nd, and I have about just over 20k words written.

I know with my physical and mental health issues that I am not going to push 30k in less than ten days.

However I’m not taking this as a failure, but as lessons learned.

I have learned that when working with a friend, I have to reorganize my time better.

I also have realized even though my walks are good for me, and getting out is good for me, they both take energy that I would have used for my writing. I need to exercise, write, talk with friends for my mental health.

It is all about balance.

I also realized that this character, in book two, does not want his story told just yet. I’m thinking maybe even going out of straight storline tell the stories out of order.

I’m rereading Melzela, tweaking her and getting that book published.

I am also making December my month and ending 2019 for me. I declare by end of 2020, I will be a professional published author. I’m determined. (Note: I do have to thank several people for my confidence and hope on my work again. One of them is a really good friend of mine.)

I plan to work on writing and if I add it my Nanowrimo that is awesome, but just getting writing in.

I learned that it’s just good to get a story out, word count is not always tat important.

Endings, again.

I’m trying to type up the last chapter on the last novella of my thriller trilogy “Driving Lies,” and I feel like my feet are stuck in the mud.

I wrote about this once before. Actually it was funny, because it was when I was actually handwriting the ending to this exact project.

https://rebekahquinne.wordpress.com/2018/02/16/endings-3/

The thing is once I know this is done, then I have to edit this project. I’m horrible with editing. I’m a writer, not an editor. I realize that editors are so expensive.

I need a good edit before I show an agent or a publishing company.

I think I’m so afraid of rejection from these companies that I am purposefully holding myself back.

Question to my nervous self: What if they really like my work?

I love writing; in fact, I believe it’s what I live for.

However I fight with depression, anxiety, PTSD, and now I am learning PCOS (it’s a female things, I am 90% of all of the symptoms.)

I get easily frustrated when I can’t get all of the things I want to done, because my depression, or anxiety instantly drained me. I would love to use my writing to release my negativity, but there are days were I can barely get out of bed or pick up a pen. (I’m currently in a living situation where my computer and sleep Cpap machine are taking up the same space. I have to take one down to put the other one up.)

Last week, I finished chapter 8 after I had to rewrite it (because I had a corrupted file.)  My depression and anxiety just did not let me enjoy my accomplishment. I just wish I can get rid of the negative feelings.

I give myself goal and they usually get blown out of proportion because something happens: doctor appointment goes wrong, my female issues come up (and drain me so bad I do not get out bed for days) or extra errands. I have learned that at times if I do too much that day, my writing (goals) suffer.

I wish I could focus primarily on my writing, but I cannot until I take care of my health and get a better place.

 

This does NOT mean I will stop writing, but I just realized that things will probably slow down, because even today, I had a horrible migraine in my eyes and the humidity just made it worst. I just wanted to write and I know my family is going to want the lights off. Grrr.

I just hope to post more blogs, short stories, and the last two chapters of third installment on  my thriller trilogy set.

I even made a new instagram account Rebekah Quinne Instagram

Camp NaNoWriMo Warm Days Ahead. . .

So far I am two days ahead in my writing. I’m 14,100 out of 35,000 (that is my word count goal)

I am currently working on my thriller and it is coming out so easy that today when it got cold, so cold my joints hurt. I took a break. I watched a movie called “Passengers” with Chris Pratt and Jennifer Lawrence. . . It was really good. It showed me that you can write your story anywhere. (You also need to make the best of the location that you’re in.)

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Romantic Distraction

Camp NaNoWriMo started April 1st and so far I got 2511 words. . . 

I do not normally post my personal life on this blog, but I am flustered and grateful. 

For Camp NaNo, I am finished a story, I started for NaNoWriMo in 2011. (When I was still with my ex, Tom.) There are some spicy scene between a few of my characters. . . you have to have a dramatic love element in a good thriller.

I will admit I have been lonely lately, as I have not really dated in over a year.

Against my personal blog (http://beckyms1213.wordpress.com) I got back on a few personal sites. (Even if it is just to find some friends, but I am started to believe people are about business or they are fake online.  The real people are actually out living life.)

As much as I love love struggling with the Internet. . . I am just beginning to believe it’s full of distractions and scammers.

I got a personal site and this what I thought was really cute guy messaged me. Of course within ten lines asked for outside chat (like Kik, hang out, or skype.)

Anyway, his answers were long and too poetic. . . they did not feel real so I took a tip from one of my favorite shows “Catfish” and I googled his replies and the first thing can up was a scam site.

So  if you get an answer or text like this. . . (it’s a scammer).

“My ambition is to inspire your beloved woman constantly and stand by my nations I want the peace for the world, to help her to keep the balance between career and private life, just as she would also inspire me to do good. Love is most paramount for me, i need a companion to share my life with, who wants to create a strong family. I want to take long walks with her and share what life has in stall for us both joy and sorrow. I’d like to look up to her as an authority for me, be proud of her, adore her, be supportive, she would have my devotion understanding,kindness, care, calmness, cheerfulness,soul support and my great love. I expect to get all these traits from her too in return, Everyone wants something good for themselves, or don’t you wish yourself well? ”

This was a direct quote I found from a scamming website.
https://www.scamwarners.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=13&t=58426

It sucked because his pics were cute. Oh well, I’m grateful now I can go back my regularly schedule program of working on my Camp NaNoWriMo projects.

 

Editing Almost Over

Camp NaNoWriMo is almost here. . .

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I have three hours of editing left and between tonight and tomorrow I will get it done.

However I feel I barely touched my novel. I think I will need to rewrite and edit in May. Hopefully by then I will have two projects to edit.

There are some day where I could focus, and get hours of editing done.

Then there were times where I was completely distracted with yoworld, words with friends, and frustration over weak bi-polar wifi.

I learned it’s hard to put a headset on and edit as I have read and reread my pieces.

I wish I had money for someone else to edit for me.

Just less than 25 hours for Camp NaNoWriMo. Yay. 

However 50 hours of editing is nothing to complain about. . . I cut out a lot of my story and rewriting to make it more of the ghosts then of therapy.
Version A was my therapy. Version B and up were my paranormal story. 

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