Camp NaNoWriMo April 2020

First of all, it’s been almost two weeks that I have no gone outside any more than ten feet from my door. So I really have cabin favor. . .

Secondly, I have been fighting a head cold (just sinuses, no fever), depression, and writer’s block. . . so I have been really out of it.

So I was surprised (which I shouldn’t have been). . . to find out that in April is Camp NaNoWriMo 2020 . . (https://www.nanowromo.org/ Nanowrimo and Camp Nanowrimo on the same site now). I’m Rebekah1213 on Camp NaNoWriMo.

So since I am feeling better, and I need to get back in to the writing groove for my sanity. . . I am trying to writing in Camp NaNoWriMo.

I am rebelling this time. . . I am working on multi projects. . . I’m calling the project writings of me. Each project has some element of me. . . Write on what I know and want right?
1. I have working on short stories in a different name. (A few know both Rebekah Quinne and my other pen name.)
2. I also working on a depression project. . . I’ve trying to face my depression creatively. . . It makes me feel like there is a war in my head, So why not write about it?
3. I thought about getting creative with this cabin fever and write fictional stories based on the changes that this virus has put on people.

However my goal is at least 30,000 words. This is simply 1,000 words per day. I can do that in my sleep.

I just hope, I have energy, and motivation to get through my writing. I miss writing and I feel unlike myself without it.

I just need to get back and writing and typing. I have been journaling a lot more for documentation of the virus and how I feel in a type of lock down. (Note: It’s not an extreme lock down, but it feels that way. . . only get out for emergency. . . it’s not an emergency.)

Anyway, I need to work on notes for Camp NaNoWriMo. . . keep you updated.

While stuck in with Coronavirus

I have had major writer’s block since mid-November and the longer I have gone with it, the less and less I feel like myself. I have tried writing different things and exercise (walks) and nothing has worked that much. 

Then over the past few weeks, the Coronavirus has really made the news. I think we are just days from all being stuck inside for a while. I feel within days even weeks, we will be stuck inside for a while. I hope you have ideas for self-entertainment/ amusement.
I will admit most of us are freaked out as our average days have suddenly changed. We have had nothing like this in history.  

I will tell you something . . . for the other writers out there blocked like me, please write about your experience.  I plan to write on my own. . . even if you don’t have the virus, should write on how the experience has changed your life or maybe even way of thinking.  We are all going through a very unique moment of history that can be more documented that ever before. (Yes, we have had viruses, plagues and other sickness, but not where we are connected to each simply by the Internet and phone.) 

A few things you can do while you have extra time. . . 

  1. A new writing project (for all of those writers out there)
  2. Netflix or youtube or hulu binges
  3. Read a book or two or ten
  4. Facebook group (please avoid the drama)
  5. Create your own website
  6. Exercise
  7. Paint or color
  8. Learn a new skill: cooking, baking, dance etc
  9. Cook a new dish
  10. Clean out your house
  11. Self-cation or stay-ation. . . It’s like a vacation but in your house. . . pampering yourself. . . bath, favorite music, relaxing do your own favorite things. 

I will give a secret of mine for all those who are depressed, anxious, worried, upset etc. . . . and seriously need counseling or simply an extra person to talk to. https://www.7cups.com really helps me. Please use this site seriously. This situation is very new and scary for a lot of people. . . and depression and anxiety are very serious things. 

Writer Block Excuses

Writer’s block Excuses . . . (And Arguments)

  1. I can’t think. (Why can’t you think? Write about it? For 60 seconds write whatever pops in your head. . . triggers? Pain? Hope? Happiness? Suffering? Anger? Just write it all.)

  2. I overthink. (Stop over overanalyzing . . . the word analyze had as ass it, so pull your head out of it and simply write. Or write about overthink, but stop thinking and just write!)

  3. All of my thoughts are tangled. (Work (Write) on a piece at time, and then another piece. . . over time you will have it figured out, no book got truly written overnight.)

  4. I’m too depressed. (Get out of bed and write about it. . . write about what would make you less depressed.)

  5. I just can’t write. (Not right. . . . Why? Do you have no fingers? Are you too busy? Whatever you think it is. . . write about it, damn it!)

  6. I am not good enough. (Write and prove yourself wrong. . . fight your inner demons.)

  7. I’m completely distracted. (Use your distraction in one of your stories. . . your characters probably get distracted too.)

  8. I’m lazy. (Thank for being honest, but get off your lazy butt and write something.)

  9. I have no light. (Use your phone or tablet . . . write)

  10. I have headaches. (Write in brief sprints. . . they add up.)

  11. I have computer issues. (write on Pen and Paper)

  12. My muses are arguing. (Write out the argument)

  13. I have mixed up my priories. (Write out what they are and the order)

  14. I’m restless. (Go for a walk, clean, and come back and write about it or write in a new spot)

  15. I need to read more. (Make time like 30 minutes each day to read, and at least 30 minutes to write)

  16. I’m only going to get rejected. (You will NOT know unless you try. NOW WRITE!)

  17. I’m not interested in that project. (Then work on something new. Just Write!)

  18. Others tell me “I write too much.” (Fuck them, if writing makes you happy, then write.)

  19. I’m sick or sore. (Rest it off and then write.)

  20. I’m tired. (Rest, but write in sprints. . . each bit counts. I got around 700,000 in 2019)

If anyone noticed that in every reply to my many excuses. . . I said write in one way or another. . . I just wish I would take my own advice. (I did manage to get about 1200 words written in my blogs.)

2019 Vs 2020

Day is 1-1-2020. (1 1 2020.. . .it’s cool)

Anyway. . . I have learned that I didn’t accomplish as many of my writing goals that I wanted to . . . My Blog 2018 Vs 2019

However I have been working on me. . . . my health, and some other personal projects. I do want to publish more than anything, but if I am not healthy and strong, I cannot get anything decent out on screen. (I finally got a cpap machine and more oxygen when I sleep does wonders for my energy level, but it took months to get patterns working.)

I also had participated in NaNoWriMo this year, but I did not get the goal of 50,000 words. . . I barely made 30 or 35K. . . However I did achieve my writing goals for both Camp NaNoWriMo this year. . . I have had writer’s block since mid-November. . . I just lost steam. (However I am very grateful for a good friend of mine that has been keeping my writing brain working with our own fun, creative stories.)

I did manage manage to get 136, 975 words more this year than last year. . .

2019 final word count was 689, 921 (Just 61,079 short of my hopeful goal of 750,000 words.)

I wrote 155 blogs this year. . .  (I wanted to write 300 blogs, but I focused on several novels this year and my health which took up more time and energy than planned.)
The links to all of my blogs are on here. . . I have my link list pinned to the top of this blog. I also wrote stories on wattpadd. I hope to write a few more this year.

I didn’t publish anything, but I did finish my Thriller trilogy Driving Lies. I have been working with fellow writing friends and beta readers.

I also realized that I have found a new love. . . coffee with fancy creamers in it.  (because of this, I have cut back majority on my soda intake. However I still love Pepsi too just not as much. . . between cutting back and the walks I take, I have lost 17 pounds. Yay!)

Goals I have for 2020. . .

  • I want to read more. I will make a list of books and stories, I want to read soon.
  • I want  to write more and post on my blogs and writing sites like wattpadd.
  • I want to research publishers.
  • I need to edit and get Driving Lies out for more readers.
  • I need to finish book 2 of my Vampire or work on Book 4 and 5 which the vampire war.
  • I have better writing patterns and no more writer’s block!

 

Nanowrimo 2019

It’s November 22nd, and I have about just over 20k words written.

I know with my physical and mental health issues that I am not going to push 30k in less than ten days.

However I’m not taking this as a failure, but as lessons learned.

I have learned that when working with a friend, I have to reorganize my time better.

I also have realized even though my walks are good for me, and getting out is good for me, they both take energy that I would have used for my writing. I need to exercise, write, talk with friends for my mental health.

It is all about balance.

I also realized that this character, in book two, does not want his story told just yet. I’m thinking maybe even going out of straight storline tell the stories out of order.

I’m rereading Melzela, tweaking her and getting that book published.

I am also making December my month and ending 2019 for me. I declare by end of 2020, I will be a professional published author. I’m determined. (Note: I do have to thank several people for my confidence and hope on my work again. One of them is a really good friend of mine.)

I plan to work on writing and if I add it my Nanowrimo that is awesome, but just getting writing in.

I learned that it’s just good to get a story out, word count is not always tat important.

Endings, again.

I’m trying to type up the last chapter on the last novella of my thriller trilogy “Driving Lies,” and I feel like my feet are stuck in the mud.

I wrote about this once before. Actually it was funny, because it was when I was actually handwriting the ending to this exact project.

https://rebekahquinne.wordpress.com/2018/02/16/endings-3/

The thing is once I know this is done, then I have to edit this project. I’m horrible with editing. I’m a writer, not an editor. I realize that editors are so expensive.

I need a good edit before I show an agent or a publishing company.

I think I’m so afraid of rejection from these companies that I am purposefully holding myself back.

Question to my nervous self: What if they really like my work?

I love writing; in fact, I believe it’s what I live for.

However I fight with depression, anxiety, PTSD, and now I am learning PCOS (it’s a female things, I am 90% of all of the symptoms.)

I get easily frustrated when I can’t get all of the things I want to done, because my depression, or anxiety instantly drained me. I would love to use my writing to release my negativity, but there are days were I can barely get out of bed or pick up a pen. (I’m currently in a living situation where my computer and sleep Cpap machine are taking up the same space. I have to take one down to put the other one up.)

Last week, I finished chapter 8 after I had to rewrite it (because I had a corrupted file.)  My depression and anxiety just did not let me enjoy my accomplishment. I just wish I can get rid of the negative feelings.

I give myself goal and they usually get blown out of proportion because something happens: doctor appointment goes wrong, my female issues come up (and drain me so bad I do not get out bed for days) or extra errands. I have learned that at times if I do too much that day, my writing (goals) suffer.

I wish I could focus primarily on my writing, but I cannot until I take care of my health and get a better place.

 

This does NOT mean I will stop writing, but I just realized that things will probably slow down, because even today, I had a horrible migraine in my eyes and the humidity just made it worst. I just wanted to write and I know my family is going to want the lights off. Grrr.

I just hope to post more blogs, short stories, and the last two chapters of third installment on  my thriller trilogy set.

I even made a new instagram account Rebekah Quinne Instagram