NaNoWriMo: 2017, another year gone.

SIGH. 

This is the second year, I did not reach my epic goal of 50,000 words this year. In fact, I did the same thing I did in Camp Nanowrimo. . . I gave myself the goal of 50,000, but only reached 35,000. Sigh. 

The worst part is all I have is excuses to fill in why. . . 

  1. Complicated love life
  2. Broken computer
  3. Exhaustion
  4. Errands
  5. Getting out more
  6. Depression
  7. Story is therapy  (sometimes hard to face)
  8. Movies or tv more interesting (Especially cuddling)
  9. Cannot get comfortable to write (no desk)

I just want energy to sit at a comfortable chair in front of a simple desk, with a caffeinated drink, and working computer. . . Is that too much to ask?

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Writing vs the Holiday

  1. I love to write.
  2. I love to cook.
  3. I love to bake.
  4. I love to color.
  5. I love to listen to music. (And sing along)
  6. I love to watch movies.
  7. I love to go shopping.

    Most of these are in random order, except my writing. I love to write. It is my passion. 

    So with the holidays, I am always busy in the kitchen. I am making the turkey this year, and I will be very busy Thursday and Friday with my male friend. (Long story, but I’ll explain in my other blog soon. Http://beckyms1213blog.wordpress.com )

    I want to double my word count for the rest of of Nanowrimo.  I hope I get to 50,000 words by November 30th. 

    I know I have said this before, but I can make a seven course meal, clean the entire house, be on 4 hours of sleep, pay all of the bills, go shopping, and if I do not write something, I feel my day is unproductive

    I know a good meal, nice, and a clean place, feels good, but without writing, I just do not feel accomplished anything at all. 

    Writing for me, even just 5 minutes or 8 hours is something special.

     It is a chaotic, artistic, sweet moment to see my colorful thoughts go from black and white to color again. 

    So I hope I get sometime to write. I still need to cook and hang out with my friend. 

    Balancing romance and writing

    I’ve been told I write too much, and I’ve seen it get in the way and caused  many fights with my ex’s and I. 

    However I was told “don’t put away your writing for me.”

    Some of the best words a writer could hear. . . 
    My new guy seems to believe in me and my writing dreams. I hope not let him down and those who support me. 

    However when he is home, I want to spend as much time with him as I can. (I just hope I’m not being too demanding in my time, I mean our time.)

    I also try to balance writing and cleaning while he works so I can spend sometime with him when he gets home. Ultimate balance is time with him and writing. 

    My computer, eh. 

    I’ve posted about my computer before- my old computer (which I briefly shared with my mom) accidentally fell out of the window and the hinge broke and I can see the wires. I’m afraid to plug it in since the internal wires are exposed, so I am not sure how broken my old computer is. . .

    However my dad got me a refurbished computer for Xmas (2015).  However my step mom saw a spark when I plugged it in and made me get rid of my cord. (Which it is a very hard cord to find.)

     It took me over 15 months to find a new cord and now the used computer. 

    It just really frustrates me as all I want to do it is turn on my computer, plug my headset in, and write while listening to music. But I can’t. . . grrrrr. 

    I have to hand write all of my notes, and Nanowrimo project. 

    Diamond in the clique rough

    I have a naughty muse (Starred is my erotic muse,) and lately she has wanted to come out in my paranormal and horror writing. 

    So if I feel the scene is going naughty I will write the scene twice. I write erotica faster than my therapy writing lately. So I have both scenes. It helps for word counts in nanowrimo and keeps me busy. 

    I found a section in one of my naughty scenes. . . (The scene is between Lucy and Lyric fooling around when they are both taken.) I know this line sounds generic and clique but it sounded good to me. 

    “She needed him–she knew he needed her. She wanted him and didn’t want to give him back. She secretly and denabliy believed that if she gave him everything he wanted, that he would feel the same way for her. ”

    Rebekah Quinne’s (c) copyrights 2017

    I felt like my paranormal writing is slowly turning into a clique romance writing. What kills me is that the guy is not the same in reality that is in her head. (But the be honest, is it ever?) She wants love, but he knows she will do anything (including naughty stuff) to keep the idea of him. He uses this to his intimate and sexual advantage. 

    I should add a ghost to the scene, but then I start to wonder if I add too much paranormal does it build or cut storyline?

    I probably should add something to make more showing and less telling

    My brain never stops and my muses are always evolving.