A Grrrrr Challenge

I use my middle and index finger when I text and type on my tablets

. . . . and since I cut my middle finger, its been a challenge. I call it a Grrrr Challenge.

However I will not stop writing! It is just a small timed setback. I will be typing faster soon.

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Every time. . .

It seems every time I give myself writing goals something always happens. . .

First nanowrimo I got two weeks of migraines

Whenever I give myself a personal goal, I’ve had . . .

  • family issues
  • mental break down (unrelated to writing)
  • I was in a car accident
  • Headaches
  • Sinuses
  • Depression
  • Hand cramps
  • Sleep issues
  • Moving
  • Female issues

However I always seem to manage to get my main word count in. It is what I want. . .

This month not any different, I have my anemia (from endomentrial hyplasya I know I didn’t spell that right, its a fancy term for very heavy female periods) mixed with my sleep apnea. I slept the last 40 hours out of 48 hours. I can’t think straight or get my process muses. They are sleepy too.

I need to stop giving myself personal goals and simply write.

I’m taking today off to see if I get my mind to work on its own. I’m over 17,900 words, so I’m very ahead.

I’m tired. It’s sleep time.

Writer’s block again, sigh.

Sorry, I haven’t written much, but my health issues vs clueless doctors have me scattered brained.

My depression and anxiety are high so much that even my muses are mentally flustered. They are taking it out on the office too. I think we’ll have to do a mental remodel.

I’ve tried reading other works, rereading my work, watch movies, listening to music, and playing Sims, but I feel more lost and mentally tangled.

I just hope I feel better next month and get out more.

April: Camp NaNoWriMo, again.

I’m writing an adult piece since most of my muses keep pushing that way.

I working on the title.

I plan to publish but not under this pen name.

My goal is 30,000 word by April 30th which is 1,000 per day. Its a reasonable goal with my health.

I’m writing my colored notes and outline now.

Good luck to my fellow writers.

Damn it my hands. . . Grrr

I love to write. The feel of a good pen in my hands as it glides on the page. It invites the words, the color, the creativity.

However my hands have been swelling and cramping for weeks now. I tried water pills, but I sleep and they are swollen again. There are cramps as I write. Pushing down on my palm hurts, moving it too much hurts.

It hurts to hold a pen or a fork. It hurts to make a fist. These damn cramps. I probably have arthritis or carpal tunnel syndrome.

I refuse to give up my writing. I felt due my ear issue, I had give up music. I’m not giving up my writing too.

Maybe I can get my computer fixed soon . . . So I can type more.

I’m going to the doctor soon.

Health vs writing

Lately, I have been getting inspiration between the hours of 1am and 7 am. So I get on the tablet or set up the tv table and write. Check out my Short Stories, I did get a few posted. . . My Short stories

  • The more I try for a day schedule, the more my body seems to fight it.
  • My heart burn issues wake me up and it sometimes feels like it is impossible to go back to sleep.
  • Then my eyes strain with the glow of the screen because everyone else wants the lights off.
  • I also have a dry cough that keeps me up all night. I feel like I’m choking but their is nothing there. . . Like I am choking on air.
  • I’ve been fighting headaches so bad, they are migraines and I’m down for days at a time with nausea and extreme pain in the head and eyes.
  • I’m also fighting hot flashes so bad, making my eyes and neck burn.
  • My pelvic area, lower back, and thighs have random pain, and it is hard to be comfortable as I write.
  • This has been fighting against me with getting quality writing.

I just want a decent writing schedule bit why is my health fighting me.

Therapy: Write about it

I use writing as a huge therapy tool. Version a (rough draft) of any of my writings are for me to get everything out. 

There are a lot of things that are illegal in real life, but nothing is illegal if you are bad guy in written story.

I will use my writing to get our feelings, especially frustration and anger.

 During editing, I will make corrections and write for the public, but version a is always for me. 

(Currently, just wish that I can get at least  6 hours of sleep each night or late morning so I can get so decent writing finished. )