I’ve been dealing with sleep apnea issues, (even when I do sleep, I feel like I barely slept. At times I live on 5 hour energy drink shots.)
I have anxiety (I have constant worry and current living situation has me on the edge. I also have what I can zombie insomnia, I can’t sleep, but I can’t focus, grrr. My living situation has me on extremely high anxiety over extreme cleaning in which furniture is to be moved vs timed issues.)
I have extreme mood swings because of this and my painful female issues.
These health issues can get in the way of true bliss. . .writing.
I’m hoping to get my notes organized while all of this cleaning going on. . . Just thinking about it drains me.
I love to blog, but usually during times of no blogs I’m doing one of two things.
- I’m fighting writers block, usually more blogs get written
- I’m working on writing projects
Lately it’s been a mixture can’t tell by September’s word count 80,627 (that’s everything from diaries, lists, bligs, stories, novel scenes, to notes)
This month, I’m working on notes for my Nanowrimo.org project. . . Crimson Shadow Collection: Book 2 Daris. My muses woke me up from a hard sleep at about a week ago, and I’ve been working on it since. Yay! Back to my dark world. . . The weirdest thing happened my mood swing have slowed down, and some days when I’m writing I feel less depressed and lonely.
I keep telling everyone I need to write and yet few really hear me.
On my personal blog http://beckyms1213blog.wordpress.com
I’m working on a personal blog self esteem project. . . New question daily. Learn something new from your dark writer. . .I got it from my favorite therapy site 7cups.com
Writing is my number 1 passion. I write short stories, poems, novels, and blogs. Genres I’m interested in are but not limited to . . . Horror, paranormal, occult, spiritual, romance, modern, suspense, thriller and drama. (I have worked with some erotica, but with another pen name.)
These are the links to all of Internet me (but the naughty part)
My WordPress blogs
Lights out. Sighs.
The fates must not want me to write at night. . . But my muses work at night the best. . . Grrr. Sigh.
This is the second light I have broken within the last 6 months. I got two desk lamps . . . The first on the clip busted. The second one bust the connector from the cord and what screws in the bulb.
I can’t read my writing to retype on this blog. . . It strains my eyes and causes several migraines. (I cannot afford to fall behind on lay in bed all day. . . I have to help my mom.)
I’m trying to clean and write during the day, but it’s hard to focus.
I hope get a light soon.
I use my middle and index finger when I text and type on my tablets
. . . . and since I cut my middle finger, its been a challenge. I call it a Grrrr Challenge.
However I will not stop writing! It is just a small timed setback. I will be typing faster soon.
I completed Camp Nanowrimo July 2018 with the word count 30,691.
I swear as soon as I just barely got pass 30,000 words . . . it was like my muses stopped. I hit a writing brick wall.
I can write a few blogs, but its like muses saw the up hill hike for part 2 and all said “hell no!” LOL.
I am grateful that I finished part one, and I wrote over 30,000 words by hand.
However even my desk lamp broke, so next month it will be more blogs.
Writing is my Nirvana, but editing is work.
I can hand write or type anywhere I am inspired. As I’ve said before, when I write is when I am most content.
I’m a storyteller and creator. I’m an artist with words. When inspired, writing just comes easy to me, it flows.
Editing is work.
I have a bad habit of not seeing my own mistakes until weeks, months later. . .
With editing I break down scenes, make goals and give myself rewards.
- I edit best between hours of 7 am and noon but only if I had good sleep the night before.
- I have to be in the right mood and mind set.
- Most of muses don’t even like to correct or edit.
I have to give myself rewards for editing because its work. I sometime look more forward to the reward than the work. I also overwork in 90% of my work, so I usually have to cut, and I hate to cut scene.
I hope that I get my computer working soon. (I need another new cord and new fan. Sigh.)
I want to get my work finished soon.