I love writing; in fact, I believe it’s what I live for.

However I fight with depression, anxiety, PTSD, and now I am learning PCOS (it’s a female things, I am 90% of all of the symptoms.)

I get easily frustrated when I can’t get all of the things I want to done, because my depression, or anxiety instantly drained me. I would love to use my writing to release my negativity, but there are days were I can barely get out of bed or pick up a pen. (I’m currently in a living situation where my computer and sleep Cpap machine are taking up the same space. I have to take one down to put the other one up.)

Last week, I finished chapter 8 after I had to rewrite it (because I had a corrupted file.)  My depression and anxiety just did not let me enjoy my accomplishment. I just wish I can get rid of the negative feelings.

I give myself goal and they usually get blown out of proportion because something happens: doctor appointment goes wrong, my female issues come up (and drain me so bad I do not get out bed for days) or extra errands. I have learned that at times if I do too much that day, my writing (goals) suffer.

I wish I could focus primarily on my writing, but I cannot until I take care of my health and get a better place.

 

This does NOT mean I will stop writing, but I just realized that things will probably slow down, because even today, I had a horrible migraine in my eyes and the humidity just made it worst. I just wanted to write and I know my family is going to want the lights off. Grrr.

I just hope to post more blogs, short stories, and the last two chapters of third installment on  my thriller trilogy set.

I even made a new instagram account Rebekah Quinne Instagram

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NaNoWriMo Break

I’m taking the day off as I wrote over 3500 word yesterday after I helped with laundry, went shopping, and cooked fried fish for dinner.  I am at 25,149 words out of my goal of 35,000 with 9 more days to write. I really think I can make this goal. . . my bigger goal to myself is to get the book completed. 

I’m excited as even my family wants to read my book.

Anyway, I play two word games to keep my brain fresh. . .

Wordscapes.  Which is fun if I can get the bigger words first. . . . I usually only have one or two on a set that just fluster me.

Word With Friends (2) . . . I love a good game of boogle or scramble. However I keep getting way older guys trying to see scams or wives. I am just trying to workout my brain. I am not trying to get hit on by random guys. (Worst part I rarely find any guys my own age.)

So today we (my friend, brother and I) made three hams, sweet potatoes, baked beans, mashed potatoes, and bean soup. All we have to do is make plates for Easter dinner tomorrow, awesome. I will also post ham ideas on my food blog. . . https://cookingimprov.home.blog/

So tonight, I am relaxing with my word games and maybe a movie.

Camp NaNoWriMo Warm Days Ahead. . .

So far I am two days ahead in my writing. I’m 14,100 out of 35,000 (that is my word count goal)

I am currently working on my thriller and it is coming out so easy that today when it got cold, so cold my joints hurt. I took a break. I watched a movie called “Passengers” with Chris Pratt and Jennifer Lawrence. . . It was really good. It showed me that you can write your story anywhere. (You also need to make the best of the location that you’re in.)

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Romantic Distraction

Camp NaNoWriMo started April 1st and so far I got 2511 words. . . 

I do not normally post my personal life on this blog, but I am flustered and grateful. 

For Camp NaNo, I am finished a story, I started for NaNoWriMo in 2011. (When I was still with my ex, Tom.) There are some spicy scene between a few of my characters. . . you have to have a dramatic love element in a good thriller.

I will admit I have been lonely lately, as I have not really dated in over a year.

Against my personal blog (http://beckyms1213.wordpress.com) I got back on a few personal sites. (Even if it is just to find some friends, but I am started to believe people are about business or they are fake online.  The real people are actually out living life.)

As much as I love love struggling with the Internet. . . I am just beginning to believe it’s full of distractions and scammers.

I got a personal site and this what I thought was really cute guy messaged me. Of course within ten lines asked for outside chat (like Kik, hang out, or skype.)

Anyway, his answers were long and too poetic. . . they did not feel real so I took a tip from one of my favorite shows “Catfish” and I googled his replies and the first thing can up was a scam site.

So  if you get an answer or text like this. . . (it’s a scammer).

“My ambition is to inspire your beloved woman constantly and stand by my nations I want the peace for the world, to help her to keep the balance between career and private life, just as she would also inspire me to do good. Love is most paramount for me, i need a companion to share my life with, who wants to create a strong family. I want to take long walks with her and share what life has in stall for us both joy and sorrow. I’d like to look up to her as an authority for me, be proud of her, adore her, be supportive, she would have my devotion understanding,kindness, care, calmness, cheerfulness,soul support and my great love. I expect to get all these traits from her too in return, Everyone wants something good for themselves, or don’t you wish yourself well? ”

This was a direct quote I found from a scamming website.
https://www.scamwarners.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=13&t=58426

It sucked because his pics were cute. Oh well, I’m grateful now I can go back my regularly schedule program of working on my Camp NaNoWriMo projects.

 

Editing Almost Over

Camp NaNoWriMo is almost here. . .

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I have three hours of editing left and between tonight and tomorrow I will get it done.

However I feel I barely touched my novel. I think I will need to rewrite and edit in May. Hopefully by then I will have two projects to edit.

There are some day where I could focus, and get hours of editing done.

Then there were times where I was completely distracted with yoworld, words with friends, and frustration over weak bi-polar wifi.

I learned it’s hard to put a headset on and edit as I have read and reread my pieces.

I wish I had money for someone else to edit for me.

Just less than 25 hours for Camp NaNoWriMo. Yay. 

However 50 hours of editing is nothing to complain about. . . I cut out a lot of my story and rewriting to make it more of the ghosts then of therapy.
Version A was my therapy. Version B and up were my paranormal story. 

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More Book Reviews

I had writer’s block so I have been reading more. I enjoy short scary stories. . . here are a few reviews for three of them with links.

True Ghost Stories: Haunted Buildings, Creepy Forests, Spooky Tales And Eerie True Ghost Stories From The Scariest Places

By Jason Keeler

I give it a 5 out of 5 stars.

I am a huge horror buff and I really enjoy the retelling of many of these non-fiction ghost stories.

I enjoy a few of the stories. Some are the origins of some urban legends I know. Others are stories from around the world that I have not heard of until today.

It written well, and it’s very organized. Buildings, Forests, and accidental tales.

I could not put it down: I read it in one session.

I would suggest it for a good ghost story reference book.

I hope to read more of his work.

https://www.amazon.com/True-Ghost-Stories-Buildings-Scariest/dp/B01M02A6U9/ref=cm_cr_srp_d_product_top?ie=UTF8

 

 

There are at least 4 or 5 dozen short stories by Drac Von Stroller (Many of them are currently free or at least they were when I downloaded several for my kindle.) Here are reviews of a few. . . (His amazon link is at the bottom of the reviews)

Book Review: Bloody Mary (Urban Legend) by Drac Von Stroller

4 out of 5 Stars.

I enjoy urban legends. I love reading different version, as I feel each version has a piece of truth.  Bloody Mary is one of my many favorites.

This usually happens when teens want to explore.

I just feel it was a bit short; however, I enjoy that Blood Mary actually communicated with the girls.

Just like the end of the story say . . . research the urban legends and the consequences before mocking the spirits.

 

Book review: The Doll By Drac Von Stroller

3 out 5 Stars

It has good twists and good scare factor. Dolls naturally scared me. I wished there was more of a description of the doll. (I could easily see this doll being with other dolls on Doll Island, but that is another story).

As a reader, I felt like pieces of the story was missing.
I still would like to where the weapon is stored while the horror aspect was not going on.
I know there was magic involved, but I would have liked more back story on how the doll was created.
I felt the warning was also too vague.

I like the motto which be careful what you wish for.

 

 

https://www.amazon.com/Drac-Von-Stoller/e/B008VJB0FG?ref=sr_ntt_srch_lnk_1&qid=1552431139&sr=8-1

 

 

Easily Distracted

I am distracted, yes again.

It’s day 2, in my editing, be to honest, I have six hours of editing in, but I look at my editing now. I’m just like meh. (the thing is I have several pieces I can edit and the motivation is just not there. Why is that?)

I am a writer. I hate to edit.

It goes in this order, writing, reading, cooking and somewhere way down the line of me is editing.  (If I had reading friends and money: I would simply pay them to find errors and confusion in my works.)

I love to write, create, and inspire, but right now I am just fighting with sucky wifi.

I was up today by 9 am: dinner was in the slow cooker by 9:45 am and yet now it’s noon and I have none of my editing done. Sigh.

March is going to be a long month.