I’ve been dealing with sleep apnea issues, (even when I do sleep, I feel like I barely slept. At times I live on 5 hour energy drink shots.)
I have anxiety (I have constant worry and current living situation has me on the edge. I also have what I can zombie insomnia, I can’t sleep, but I can’t focus, grrr. My living situation has me on extremely high anxiety over extreme cleaning in which furniture is to be moved vs timed issues.)
I have extreme mood swings because of this and my painful female issues.
These health issues can get in the way of true bliss. . .writing.
I’m hoping to get my notes organized while all of this cleaning going on. . . Just thinking about it drains me.
I love to blog, but usually during times of no blogs I’m doing one of two things.
- I’m fighting writers block, usually more blogs get written
- I’m working on writing projects
Lately it’s been a mixture can’t tell by September’s word count 80,627 (that’s everything from diaries, lists, bligs, stories, novel scenes, to notes)
This month, I’m working on notes for my Nanowrimo.org project. . . Crimson Shadow Collection: Book 2 Daris. My muses woke me up from a hard sleep at about a week ago, and I’ve been working on it since. Yay! Back to my dark world. . . The weirdest thing happened my mood swing have slowed down, and some days when I’m writing I feel less depressed and lonely.
I keep telling everyone I need to write and yet few really hear me.
On my personal blog http://beckyms1213blog.wordpress.com
I’m working on a personal blog self esteem project. . . New question daily. Learn something new from your dark writer. . .I got it from my favorite therapy site 7cups.com
Writing is my number 1 passion. I write short stories, poems, novels, and blogs. Genres I’m interested in are but not limited to . . . Horror, paranormal, occult, spiritual, romance, modern, suspense, thriller and drama. (I have worked with some erotica, but with another pen name.)
These are the links to all of Internet me (but the naughty part)
My WordPress blogs
I wrote 30,691 words on Camp NaNoWriMo. I wish I wrote more, but I’ve been battling with my muses.
So I decided to write some personal articles.
(Since my mom is getting hernia surgery this month, I’m using this to write and learn about myself and be a distraction.)
I will be posting on these blogs
Please read and enjoy.
It seems every time I give myself writing goals something always happens. . .
First nanowrimo I got two weeks of migraines
Whenever I give myself a personal goal, I’ve had . . .
- family issues
- mental break down (unrelated to writing)
- I was in a car accident
- Hand cramps
- Sleep issues
- Female issues
However I always seem to manage to get my main word count in. It is what I want. . .
This month not any different, I have my anemia (from endomentrial hyplasya I know I didn’t spell that right, its a fancy term for very heavy female periods) mixed with my sleep apnea. I slept the last 40 hours out of 48 hours. I can’t think straight or get my process muses. They are sleepy too.
I need to stop giving myself personal goals and simply write.
I’m taking today off to see if I get my mind to work on its own. I’m over 17,900 words, so I’m very ahead.
I’m tired. It’s sleep time.
I’m writing a few scene where my main character meets her favorite author. . . her author gave her tips.
I decided to post these tips. . . I either read about them or experience them myself. . .again write about what you know.
My main character is in Los Angeles and runs into her favorite author, and here are the tips I gave my main character wanting to be a future author.
- The first draft is always confusion, and never perfect. (Those who wrote a prefect rough draft, may throw an empty pen.) My first draft is always a chaotic mess. Check out picture above.
- Research and outlines or notes are just important because good research really does set up you up to make the best draft you can. Note: you never stop researching, even if you know the subject.)
- Write about what you know or are interested in. It will keep you interested if you like what you are writing about.
- When it comes to the first draft give yourself a time limit. . . . like 6 to 8 weeks. If you give yourself more than there is a high chance you’ll lose interest. Try to have research and outlines or notes written ahead. (Even if I lost interest, I never throw anything out. I file it away.)
- I have better times when I write and other times when I edit. I’m usually most inspired to write between the hours 5 pm to 3 am especially if I am working on horror or paranormal stories. I usually edit the best between the times 8 am and 2 pm.
- When I edit and rewrite, I pull apart each scenes and I determine if that scene is important for character building or storyline.
- I reread my work out loud while editing.
- I give my self goals and rewards for editing, because I hate editing compared to writing.
- I keep praises.
- I try to criticizing words with a grain of salt. I know not everyone is going to like my work.
I have a list a goals for writing. . . The first one is about my word count. I want 400,000.
I did have a year or two where I hit 500,000 words. . . However I have a lot more on my plate this year. I may not also hit 3,000 as a daily average, but I will be grateful just to get words on a page.
I was punching the numbers for my word count: I would have to have a daily average of 1265 to get to my goal. So far this year my daily word count average is 919. I would be about 70,000 words short of 400k.
Even if I don’t hit the 400,000 word count or 3,000 daily word counts, I just want to be inspired, motivated and productive.
I plan to write in Camp Nanowrimo July and Nanowrimo November, so it will help.
Overall, I just want to try to write something everyday from this point on.