My Motivation

What’s your motivation?

What inspires you?

What makes you want to get out of bed in the morning?

Why do you do what you do?

 

I got this from this blog

https://cristianmihai.net/2019/05/25/whats-your-motivation/

(I must give credit where credit is do . . . )

My ultimate dream is to a famous author like Stephen King and Anne Rice. I also enjoy the writings of Agatha Christie. I want to make money doing what I love writing horror, paranormal, and thriller novels.

Writing a book does NOT just happen overnight. Draft A usually takes me at least three months as life does not stop while I am writing a novel. I do argue with my muses and characters and sometimes family members. LOL
(Currently I am writing on a folding table that I have to take down every day. I live with family and I do not have a desk, writing area. It’s very frustrating but I put my frustration in my characters; it helps for fight scenes.)

 

There are days I feel like crap (even today with my migraine this afternoon,) and I still write. (over 2000 words so far)
(As I have posted in several blogs. . . I can make a five course meal, clean the entire house, do all of the errands, paid all of the bills and if I did NOT write, I felt as if I did nothing that day.
When I played volleyball as young lady, I had a shirt that said Life is Volleyball! and in small print: Everything else is just stuff. I feel the same way about writing.)

 

To be honest with my health issues, someday I have to force myself to get out of bed. I tell myself that I get to cook and/or write that day and it helps. (I have made myself rewrite chapter 8 of this current project I am doing, because it’s an exciting, dangerous thriller that I believe will make people want to read all three novellas. I plan to write summaries and cover pieces and post them on the blog soon. Something to look forward to this week.)
I may not be a published author today or the next day, but I believe someday in the future some publishing company will publish my work and sell my books! That thought alone gets me out of bed and typing every day.

I do what I do because I love it. I am writer. (At first I thought I was singer, until I was in college when I found out I couldn’t sing one thing and play another because of inner ear issue.

  • However since kindergarten I have been writing and making books for young authors: kindergarten thru fifth grade.
  • During recess, while kids were playing, I was writing, and I had to use a pencil when the weather would get cold as ink does freeze.
  • My first boy-girl party in 8th grade I was sitting in the bushes writing poetry and lyrics.
  • All throughout high school, I was writing short stories, scripts and lyrics.
    I was always meant to be a writer and I will be popular author!)

 

I am inspired by everything from daily life to simply reading another blog like https://cristianmihai.net/2019/05/25/whats-your-motivation/

(By the way, I like reading their blog. They always a piece or two that pulls my attention. )

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Writing Suggestion

First of all, this is not advice, because deep down 90% of people never take the advice when someone gives it anyway.

Secondly, I writing this blog more for myself (self talk), but if it helps others . . . awesome!

My suggestion: Focus on your own writings. 

Do not worry if some self-published writer had 60 novels and three amazon awards.
(It doesn’t make you any less of a writer.) 
Just say congrads and if they have a book give away, read it and see what the hype is. (Note: They might not even be in your genres.)

Write down your goals and dreams and focus on what you want to do for you. 
Be happy when you even get one fan (that is not a friend or family, who would say that you are good no matter what. . . And thank your family for their support and putting up with you. . . you can get cranky interrupted from your writing mode. )
Enjoy the compliments. (Say thank you and focus back into your work)
Use the criticism to help your work. (Remember not everyone is going to enjoy your work. Focus on your target audience, once your figure out who they are.)

Stop comparing your work to others.
Your work is different and your fans enjoy work.

Focus and you can make your dreams come true!

 

First Third of 2019

So far up to date I have 242,413 words written. It averages 1,939 words per day. (My goal is 2,000 words per day and I’m pretty close.)

At this rate if I keep up writing at 1,939 words per day I will be at 707,735 words by the end of the year. (My yearly goal is 750,000 words this year.)

This includes. . . (by not limited to)

  • Novels
  • Rewrites/edits
  • Diary
  • Blogs
  • Lists
  • Stories
  • Emails/chatting(especially storytelling)
  • Notes/research

Note: I try to write everyday even if its just notes, diary entries or lists. However there are some days when I’m just too weak to write. I do try my best to make it up.

Thoughts in my head at 4am

It’s always happen this way . . . it’s 4am in the morning and my brain and my muses will NOT wine down.

It can be any other day when I am not doing anything and they do not want to work either.
However when I have to get up and go to do errands.

My brain just keep going and going.  . . . So many thoughts.

  • Will I ever finish my book if my computer keeps corrupting my files? (Grrr)
  • Why does overheating cause my files to corrupt? (I just do not know why those would even be related. I’m so flustered that I put over a week of work only for it to go to a black screen just at the last line. . . just before I hit save. GRRRR. (I lose a week worth of word count just about 8,000 words, my computer over heated and entire chapter got corrupted. . . GRRRRR)
  • Am I really talented or am I wasting time? (I am torn with this, but then again hours of writing with coffee, soda or tea in my travel mug. . . is my currently bliss. I just would love to be famous or at least Very well known for my written work. I want to be the author if Stephen King and Anne Rice had a kid together. . . I know it sounds weird, but I love both author’s works. I already have three people within the week that are interested in my driving thriller. )
  • Do NaNoWriMo or Camp NaNoWriMo really help? (I mean I push myself for that month to get words in my books, but are they that good? Do I really need to push my novel in so many weeks like Stephen King does? I mean he already has several publisher. . . Why am I even asking myself those questions? It’s my damn anxiety and depression monsters trying to think they are logical, but they are just trying to keep me down so that they get more powerful. Grrrr)
  • Why do I keep getting hit on by guys 50 or older? (I feel like I am the good kid that parents all liked a bit too much.) (It would be really weird the guys 20 years older than me look at me like a healthy sexual being.) Age is a thing to me. . . I would like someone closer to my age. There is a difference between 10 years, defiantly between 20 years. (I mean back when my uncle went to school they had a smoking lounge. Matters, slang, how people look at things all change with time. I have not found anyone 10 years and older that truly understand me.)
  • Why can’t I play Words with Friends (WWF) without getting guys 50 plus who have kids and instantly think I want to fill the void of their dead wife? (I do not want to be a replacement “mommy” while my own body will not allow me to make my own, and the guy my father’s age is having a secret affair with his secretary. I just want to play a game of scramble and beat my highest score of 437. I use words with friends and word scape to keep my brain fresh for my writing and reading skills.)
  • Will I get ever get professionally published? (This does not be self-published to be lost in the amazon.com sea of so-so books. I mean to find a real publisher, agent, and editor on my team to help me sell and promote my book while they have me go from book store to book store signing books while everyone want to know what will happen next in my vampire and ghost series. I need a real publisher and editor. . . I am so overwhelmed. )
  • Will I get a better place and have bigger desk, nicer pc, and cat? (I also want a kitchen, bath tub, and my own recliner. When will this happen?)

 

It’s almost 5 am. . . I think I need to sleep now. . . hopefully dreaming of publishing and getting a nicer place.

I’m a writer

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This week has been up and down. I’ve been fighting both writer’s block and depression (and yes, I think they are linked this time).

I have always had issues with my physical appearance as I am bigger woman. I have tried the exercise and diets ,. . . I will lose 20 ponds here or there, but I still end up gaining it back and then some. I have learned to deal with myself.  So when someone calls me beautiful, pretty, cute etc. . . I will say thank you but I usually blow it off. (As there are usually at least two negative comments on weight compared to the positive.)

However. 

The comments, compliment, encourage comes from my writing truly makes my day!

  • I love when those say they love my writing.
  • They said they enjoyed my writing.
  • When they say they want to read more.
  • When they say my writing touches their soul.
  • When they say they can relate to characters.
  • When they call me a real writer.
  • When they said I will be published soon. (They had more hope than I did.)

Writing comments and compliments mean more to me as physical issues only last so long, but my writing can touch other now and in the future.

Revising my writing and myself

Have you ever reread a piece of your own writing and asked yourself any one of the following. .

  • What was I thinking when I wrote that?
  • What was I trying to say?
  • Why did I just repeat myself?
  • Why didn’t I give enough information?
  • Where was I going with that?
  • Why did I use the cliché?
  • Was I trying to piss my audience off?

The last one made me laugh.

The thing I have learned like any art that writing is never truly finished. There is always a tweak or change an author can make . . . it was will turn the story completely different.

I also noticed that version A never looks like or sounds like version ZZZ.

However I have found a piece of editing that I do like that is when I get to rewrite. My problem from this when I am trying to subtract word from my lengthy novels . . . when I rewrite I usually add even more. I need to learn how to describe things in a condensed and efficient way.

My other issues when I leave words out from typing too much. I have to read and reread to catch the words that are missing.

I hope someday to be well-do enough to get a professional editor to look over my work. It really needs it.

More Book Reviews

I had writer’s block so I have been reading more. I enjoy short scary stories. . . here are a few reviews for three of them with links.

True Ghost Stories: Haunted Buildings, Creepy Forests, Spooky Tales And Eerie True Ghost Stories From The Scariest Places

By Jason Keeler

I give it a 5 out of 5 stars.

I am a huge horror buff and I really enjoy the retelling of many of these non-fiction ghost stories.

I enjoy a few of the stories. Some are the origins of some urban legends I know. Others are stories from around the world that I have not heard of until today.

It written well, and it’s very organized. Buildings, Forests, and accidental tales.

I could not put it down: I read it in one session.

I would suggest it for a good ghost story reference book.

I hope to read more of his work.

https://www.amazon.com/True-Ghost-Stories-Buildings-Scariest/dp/B01M02A6U9/ref=cm_cr_srp_d_product_top?ie=UTF8

 

 

There are at least 4 or 5 dozen short stories by Drac Von Stroller (Many of them are currently free or at least they were when I downloaded several for my kindle.) Here are reviews of a few. . . (His amazon link is at the bottom of the reviews)

Book Review: Bloody Mary (Urban Legend) by Drac Von Stroller

4 out of 5 Stars.

I enjoy urban legends. I love reading different version, as I feel each version has a piece of truth.  Bloody Mary is one of my many favorites.

This usually happens when teens want to explore.

I just feel it was a bit short; however, I enjoy that Blood Mary actually communicated with the girls.

Just like the end of the story say . . . research the urban legends and the consequences before mocking the spirits.

 

Book review: The Doll By Drac Von Stroller

3 out 5 Stars

It has good twists and good scare factor. Dolls naturally scared me. I wished there was more of a description of the doll. (I could easily see this doll being with other dolls on Doll Island, but that is another story).

As a reader, I felt like pieces of the story was missing.
I still would like to where the weapon is stored while the horror aspect was not going on.
I know there was magic involved, but I would have liked more back story on how the doll was created.
I felt the warning was also too vague.

I like the motto which be careful what you wish for.

 

 

https://www.amazon.com/Drac-Von-Stoller/e/B008VJB0FG?ref=sr_ntt_srch_lnk_1&qid=1552431139&sr=8-1