Trying (Distraction)

It seems ever since I declared: I’m not looking for someone at the moment and  I am focusing on me and my work. . .  guys have been coming out of the woodwork to hit on me.  (I do NOT not want face-time, I do not want to exchange numbers, I do NOT want to meet, especially when I don’t know you, and I will NOT get naughty on the first meeting. I am NOT a catfish, I am a very real BBW female, but I just do not want a relationship at this moment.)

I’m NOT in a phase of my life to be ready to deal in a relationship.  I mention this in my other blog http://beckyms1213blog.wordpress.com/

If you want to be friends, then keep it online right now. Message me, and I will message you when I can. 

I got an extender as told my my landlord, but then I found out that other clients are over using the wifi so by the time it hits my extender, I barely have internet at all. Sigh.
It took me 25 minutes to post a twitter yesterday, and over two hours to get this blog set up. GRRR.

So right now since my computer works, I plan to focus on my writings. I am a writer; it’s my happiness.

Just for those out there messaging me over and over, it will not change my mind, and I need to focus on me. You WILL NOT change my mind.

If you are a reader, please use my links on my pinned Blog and HAPPY READING!

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2018 Vs 2019

In 2018 I did the following. . .

  1. Written over 200 blogs
  2. Written over 500,000 words (552, 946 words to be exact)
  3. My computer was down most of the year, so I wrote most of my novels by hand and used tablets for my blogs.
  4. I wrote entire diary
  5. Acoomplished by Camp NaNoWriMo and NaNoWriMo in Novmeber (with gout)

 

In 2019, I want to. . .

  1. I want something published.
  2. Write 12 fanfiction stories (https://www.fanfiction.net/~rebekahwriter13/ )
  3. Write 12 Short stories for Wattpadd (https://www.wattpad.com/user/RebekahQuinne )
  4. Write 300 blogs this year (Links to my blogs here: https://rebekahquinne.wordpress.com/2018/09/04/links-to-my-pages-4/ )
  5. Finish these several projects
    • Crimson Shadow Collection: Book 2:Daris
    • Driving Lies Book 3 Typed
    • Driving Lies Books 1-3 Edit

 

Pure Bliss

Plugging myself in with the playlist of my favorite music, blocking out the bitter reality of this harsh world.

Turn on my M.S. Word or get out a pen and Notebook and then completely focus on my fantasy worlds within each story or novel.

Just type or write for hours, word after word, line to paragraph to page. . . creating drama and horror within the story knowing that what doesn’t kill my characters just makes them that crazier and stronger.

That is my pure bliss.

Word count and Nanowrimo update

My word count and other updates

I accomplished Nanowrimo in November 2018 (I was a rebel I worked on two projects): 50,951 words

My total Nanowrimo word count from 2010 to 2018: 439, 895 words (I have novella trigology written, two novels finished and three novel projects in process)

Overall from January to November (2018): 501,765 words (My personal goal was 400,000 I still have to write December)

November total word count (including, Nanowrimo, email, lists, diary, blogs etc ): 91,691 words

I also achieved a personal of getting average of 3000 words a day and made this goal in November 2018. Yay! It average 3056 words per day. (In spite of migraines, gout, errands, cleaning etc. So I have no excuses.)

Links to word count and other goals (I accomplished all of camp and regular Nanowrimo goals )

https://rebekahquinne.wordpress.com/2018/01/07/what-i-want-in-2018/

rebekahquinne.wordpress.com/2018/09/17/current-goals-and-updates/

https://rebekahquinne.wordpress.com/2018/06/24/2018-writing-goal/

My Nanowrimo process

It’s Day 13 and I am only 41 words behind . . . However my eyes hurt and I can’t feel another migraine forming.

Between the cold weather with the heater, my female issues, dealing with a temperamental computer, I’ve had migraine at four days so far since I’ve started Nanowrimo this year. So only being 41 words behind is not bad.

I sometimes read the pep talk on Nanowrimo, and someone mention that “Writing sucks.” WTF?

It can make you frustrated when your muses and characters are taking you different directions, but writing does NOT suck. If you think writing suck, then why are you doing it? (Maybe you don’t like writing the endless report for work, that your boss does not read anyway, but Nanowrimo should NOT feel like work.)

I’m just so flustered when you want pep and you get blah. Grrr.

Ok here’s pep. Everyone has at least one story that just needs to get out. So stop saying “what if” or “i need to do it” and just write it. (Just like Nike’s theme “just do it!”)

Now I’m going to make dinner and then lay down so I can write more tomorrow.

Nanowrimo prep vs time

I’ve been dealing with sleep apnea issues, (even when I do sleep, I feel like I barely slept. At times I live on 5 hour energy drink shots.)

I have anxiety (I have constant worry and current living situation has me on the edge. I also have what I can zombie insomnia, I can’t sleep, but I can’t focus, grrr. My living situation has me on extremely high anxiety over extreme cleaning in which furniture is to be moved vs timed issues.)

I have extreme mood swings because of this and my painful female issues.

These health issues can get in the way of true bliss. . .writing.

I’m hoping to get my notes organized while all of this cleaning going on. . . Just thinking about it drains me.

Updates

I love to blog, but usually during times of no blogs I’m doing one of two things.

  1. I’m fighting writers block, usually more blogs get written
  2. I’m working on writing projects

Lately it’s been a mixture can’t tell by September’s word count 80,627 (that’s everything from diaries, lists, bligs, stories, novel scenes, to notes)

This month, I’m working on notes for my Nanowrimo.org project. . . Crimson Shadow Collection: Book 2 Daris. My muses woke me up from a hard sleep at about a week ago, and I’ve been working on it since. Yay! Back to my dark world. . . The weirdest thing happened my mood swing have slowed down, and some days when I’m writing I feel less depressed and lonely.

I keep telling everyone I need to write and yet few really hear me.

On my personal blog http://beckyms1213blog.wordpress.com

I’m working on a personal blog self esteem project. . . New question daily. Learn something new from your dark writer. . .I got it from my favorite therapy site 7cups.com