Romantic Distraction

Camp NaNoWriMo started April 1st and so far I got 2511 words. . . 

I do not normally post my personal life on this blog, but I am flustered and grateful. 

For Camp NaNo, I am finished a story, I started for NaNoWriMo in 2011. (When I was still with my ex, Tom.) There are some spicy scene between a few of my characters. . . you have to have a dramatic love element in a good thriller.

I will admit I have been lonely lately, as I have not really dated in over a year.

Against my personal blog (http://beckyms1213.wordpress.com) I got back on a few personal sites. (Even if it is just to find some friends, but I am started to believe people are about business or they are fake online.  The real people are actually out living life.)

As much as I love love struggling with the Internet. . . I am just beginning to believe it’s full of distractions and scammers.

I got a personal site and this what I thought was really cute guy messaged me. Of course within ten lines asked for outside chat (like Kik, hang out, or skype.)

Anyway, his answers were long and too poetic. . . they did not feel real so I took a tip from one of my favorite shows “Catfish” and I googled his replies and the first thing can up was a scam site.

So  if you get an answer or text like this. . . (it’s a scammer).

“My ambition is to inspire your beloved woman constantly and stand by my nations I want the peace for the world, to help her to keep the balance between career and private life, just as she would also inspire me to do good. Love is most paramount for me, i need a companion to share my life with, who wants to create a strong family. I want to take long walks with her and share what life has in stall for us both joy and sorrow. I’d like to look up to her as an authority for me, be proud of her, adore her, be supportive, she would have my devotion understanding,kindness, care, calmness, cheerfulness,soul support and my great love. I expect to get all these traits from her too in return, Everyone wants something good for themselves, or don’t you wish yourself well? ”

This was a direct quote I found from a scamming website.
https://www.scamwarners.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=13&t=58426

It sucked because his pics were cute. Oh well, I’m grateful now I can go back my regularly schedule program of working on my Camp NaNoWriMo projects.

 

Editing Almost Over

Camp NaNoWriMo is almost here. . .

I have three hours of editing left and between tonight and tomorrow I will get it done.

However I feel I barely touched my novel. I think I will need to rewrite and edit in May. Hopefully by then I will have two projects to edit.

There are some day where I could focus, and get hours of editing done.

Then there were times where I was completely distracted with yoworld, words with friends, and frustration over weak bi-polar wifi.

I learned it’s hard to put a headset on and edit as I have read and reread my pieces.

I wish I had money for someone else to edit for me.

Just less than 25 hours for Camp NaNoWriMo. Yay. 

However 50 hours of editing is nothing to complain about. . . I cut out a lot of my story and rewriting to make it more of the ghosts then of therapy.
Version A was my therapy. Version B and up were my paranormal story. 

Easily Distracted

I am distracted, yes again.

It’s day 2, in my editing, be to honest, I have six hours of editing in, but I look at my editing now. I’m just like meh. (the thing is I have several pieces I can edit and the motivation is just not there. Why is that?)

I am a writer. I hate to edit.

It goes in this order, writing, reading, cooking and somewhere way down the line of me is editing.  (If I had reading friends and money: I would simply pay them to find errors and confusion in my works.)

I love to write, create, and inspire, but right now I am just fighting with sucky wifi.

I was up today by 9 am: dinner was in the slow cooker by 9:45 am and yet now it’s noon and I have none of my editing done. Sigh.

March is going to be a long month.

 

3 AM I Ideas

So my sleep schedule is off. . . it is now 3 am in the morning.

I was scanning my facebook main page. . . as one of my many distraction as lately.

There was a post to share the link of your first published book.

Here’s my link. . .

https://www.amazon.com/Whispering-Path-Ms-Rebekah-Wolveire/dp/1463674309/ref=sr_1_6?ie=UTF8&qid=1550045233&sr=8-6&keywords=The+whispering+path

The Whispering Path. (2011)

It was even under my old pen name Rebekah Wolveire

It hit me . . . I know I need to reedit and rewrite (after eight years of learning of the writing career and how to better your novels and such etc). I plan to write and reedit this book and make an e-book this summer.

So this is what happens to me at 3 am in the morning.

So please look for  The Whispering Path in the Summer of 2019. (As long as I do not get distracted.)

My Ideal day

I wake up by 10 am. “Let’s make a Deal” is playing in the background. I make fresh coffee and egg sandwiches.

I write my daily blogs while enjoying breaking and listening to game shows.

By lunch, we go out get a quick bite and get errands and shopping done. (I love to shop, but on days I’m not doing errands, I will organize notes, research topics for my writings, clean a room, or write more. I fit in writing whenever I can.)

We get home and together make a fun dinner. . . Cheese shrimp pasta or steak fajitas.

Then we clean up together and enjoy down time.

My down time is chatting with online friends, listening to music and working on my short stories, blogs, and novels.

Read a bit before going to bed.

Note: For those who say, I write too much, then I say you don’t know me. (And you probably never truly understand me.)

A day without writing, is unproductive say to me.

One of my secret motivators

Coffee!

Writing Mood: Content

Its day 19 and betweens the blogs, notes, and novel I’m at 35,000 words. Yay! My novel is at 25,715 words which awesome for my 30,000 word goal. Again, I would love to reach 50,000 words, but if I don’t I still did really well. What counts is that I got parts of my novel written.

Lately, I’ve been in a writing and very creative mood. I feel like myself. . . like I can face the world with pen (sword) in hand.

Only frustration is when I get interrupted, it gets hard to get back into a drama scene. I sometimes have to reread my work and notes a dozen times. However lately its like my head can magically go back.

I still snap when someone interrupts me, and then I feel bad. Like the other night, I’m in my zone and I was sitting at the edge of my seat, and kept asking me “what are you doing?”

Now I could have gotten sarastic, and said “winning fake money at slots or petting my monkey. . .” but then he will just ask more questions.

He kept asking my mom until both her and I were irked. I snapped. I wasn’t mad. I was irked, annoyed. If he stood up, he would have saw the the pens and notebook out.

Even today the drunken neighbor asked “What was I do with the notebook and pen?” I could have said ” I am your new ruler, and I’m just now working on your million rules.” However I just said “I’m a write, and I write stories.”

I’ve learned that sarasm just isn’t that nice anymore and makes me sounds more like a cranky b*tch.

The thing that my uncle said the other night did get to me . . . “why aren’t you happy?”

Actually, minus a sleep issues, I’m pretty content right now. I don’t have to be explosive happy all of the time. I’m content writing in my own world.

Writing Challenges (possible fixes)

• Internet which can be a list of distractions

• Chatting
• Gaming
• Facebook stuff
• Blogging
• Looking websites
• Emailing
• Personals

(I can give myself internet time for reward for reaching a certain number count. Note: buy a timer or use a timer on tablet.)

• TV

(Writing sprints during commercials if show doesn’t re-air. If the show re-airs, then watch it later, write first.)

• Health
• Depression/anxiety/worry (write out feelings)
• Nightmare or dreams (twisted them into stories)
• Sleep issues (if you can focus write or write notes)
• Pelvic pain (see a doctor soon.)
• Hands: swollen/ painful joints (Writing sprints and take breaks)
• Errand (bring notebook for notes, scenes outlines etc.)
• Friends (notebooks or write before or after visit.)

Note: not I have possible fixes there are no excuses

Damn it my hands. . . Grrr

I love to write. The feel of a good pen in my hands as it glides on the page. It invites the words, the color, the creativity.

However my hands have been swelling and cramping for weeks now. I tried water pills, but I sleep and they are swollen again. There are cramps as I write. Pushing down on my palm hurts, moving it too much hurts.

It hurts to hold a pen or a fork. It hurts to make a fist. These damn cramps. I probably have arthritis or carpal tunnel syndrome.

I refuse to give up my writing. I felt due my ear issue, I had give up music. I’m not giving up my writing too.

Maybe I can get my computer fixed soon . . . So I can type more.

I’m going to the doctor soon.

Health vs writing

Lately, I have been getting inspiration between the hours of 1am and 7 am. So I get on the tablet or set up the tv table and write. Check out my Short Stories, I did get a few posted. . . My Short stories

• The more I try for a day schedule, the more my body seems to fight it.
• My heart burn issues wake me up and it sometimes feels like it is impossible to go back to sleep.
• Then my eyes strain with the glow of the screen because everyone else wants the lights off.
• I also have a dry cough that keeps me up all night. I feel like I’m choking but their is nothing there. . . Like I am choking on air.
• I’ve been fighting headaches so bad, they are migraines and I’m down for days at a time with nausea and extreme pain in the head and eyes.
• I’m also fighting hot flashes so bad, making my eyes and neck burn.
• My pelvic area, lower back, and thighs have random pain, and it is hard to be comfortable as I write.
• This has been fighting against me with getting quality writing.

I just want a decent writing schedule bit why is my health fighting me.