All situations can be written. . .

I was stood up Saturday instead of just waiting for two hours, I outlined part 2 for my book. (Yes, making the best of my anxiety, time, and my Nanowrimo prep.)

So I waited hours for the bozo to not show, and I was frazzled. What made it worst was when I gave him a chance after he begged for it, and I told him it would NOT work with the distance. Then after two hours of waiting, saying he was going to be there, he texts me saying: it‘s not working for me

No crap!

So what do my muses do? They nag me to write about it, and put it my novel I am working on.  3350 words later I have a scene to add into my story.  I know it’s before nanowrimo but I wanted to write while all feelings were fresh in my head. The migraine was worth the Saturday night of writing. 

Thank you . . . Muses (in no particular order )

  • Rebekah
  • Kelly
  • Emma
  • Chlorine
  • Starre
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Introducing to my characters. . . 

These are the main character to both my books:

The Whispering Path 

 The Broken Path. 

Lucy is the main character. . . Yes, story involves around her. She has a gift and curse. . . She is a ghost whisperer. She can communicate with the dead and sometimes they are nicer and more grateful than the living. She is trying to find her place in this world, but things always seem to get complicated. 

Valin is her complicated half boyfriend, half friend, but full drama king. He always seems to find trouble, even when not looking. At first, he liked how she allowed him to be himself, but his obsession such as ghost hunting and dealing with different spiritualities, change him. (He is drawn more to his own dark side. He has used Lucy’s gift to get attention.)

Lyric is her crush and first half boyfriend. He is there more when it’s convenient for him. He knows she is crazy about him, and uses it to his advantage. He; however, trusts Lucy more anyone. They have a bound with the paranormal after his first girlfriend Daisy died while he and she were in high school. He is the very moody artist type who puts alot of his feelings in his art, drugs, alcohol, and sex. 

Paige is Daisy cousin who looks similar to Daisy and pulls in Lyrics interest, but then he gets flustered when she doesn’t act like her cousin. He feels if he leaves her, he will leave Daisy. She knows he is in love with Daisy and since she had a crush on him when she was younger, she uses her cousins similar looks to her advantage. They stray apart,  but stay together for their kids. 

Verona is wife to Vincent. They were together since high school, and neither one seen themselves with anyone else. Verona dated Valin first, but then meet his friend Vincent and the rest was history. She gets off having sex in public.

Vincent was madly in love with Verona at first sight of her thigh high black boots and gothic look. He loves the fact that she is into everything he is drinking, weed, ghost hunting, watching sports drunk, parties, and lots of sex. Vincent and Verona are always in Valin house and store more than their own. 

Autumn Lucy’s ex best friend high school. She put drama, gossip, and boys over her best friend. They parted and Autu,n got pregnant her senior year. They have not looked at things the same afterwards. 
Why I say half boyfriend’s? I feel that the relationships she has with both Lyric and Valin are not complete. Valin is more complete  than she is with Lyric, but secretly she wants Lyric more. 
All character (c) Rebekah Quinne and Rebekah Wolveire 2010-2017

What my Muses look like

What my Muses looks like. . . .

 

Rebekah has sandy blond hair, piercing blue eyes.  She has a flat stomach but curvy breasts and hips. With the right dress you can see the hour glass shape. Her back and legs are solid muscle, toned but not bulging. She loves to wear leggings, sport bras when working out, but jeans and sweaters at business meetings.

Just under Rebekah’s office we have a gym with exercise bikes, weights, treadmills, yoga area, and hot tub. It helps my muses stay in shape and focus.

 

Jack has sparkling blue eyes, spiking light brown hair, and very nice, inviting smile. He sometime will have a rugged look; with a 5 o’clock shadow. He barely works, but has a fast metabolism which helps him easily keep a 6 pack.  He usually wears tank tops and shorts, but the other muses like him when he is just in a towel.

 

Chlorine has natural blue-green eyes, but usually wears her violet contacts with her different hair styles or wigs. She looks amazing all natural, on her face, but rarely wears it that way. She has been known to spend more time on herself than her writing ideas. She rather shop until she notice that too many other muses are making weak situations and characters. Then she adds her two cents.

 

Emma has brown eyes and jet black hair. She loves the smoky look for her eyes or extreme make up.  She loves her high fashion, and she likes when her characters are rich enough to look good or she even make them steal to look good. She loves to be serve and gossip, so she is always in drama.

 

Mary has dyed her hair black-blue which looks well with her pale skin and green eyes. She wear gothic make up, not white, but highlighting her eyes in black, and a purple lipstick. She think being gothic that it’s like facing her fears.  She is short just barely 5ft mostly 4’11” so her leather trench coat is even longer on her.

 

Luna is also short at 5’2” but she is cute with chin length red hair and green eyes. She wear thick black sparkling glasses. She has freckles and looks as if she is in her teens. She is the youngest muse, but still over age 21. She is slightly chubby but loves to wear jeans, and her tee shirts with crazy sayings. Like “Don’t go to be angry, stay up and plot revenge.”

 

Sandy has sandy hair and teal eyes. She only has a natural look whether she has make up or not. She loves to wear summer dresses.  She hates to work out, but she knows it the only way she looks so good in the summer dresses. She is my romantic girl.

 

Kelly is then with crystal blue eyes and beach blonde hair. She has bleached teeth so her teeth look whiter with her red lipsticks. She rarely eats, because she secretly believes she is fat.  Rebekah sneaks vitamins in her coffee to keep her going. She wears low cut jeans or skirts and shirts that always show her belly button ring.  She does not wear underwear.

 

(Zoe had dark blue eyes and black hair. She had a swimmer’s body. She would swimming naked and did nudge yoga. She didn’t wear clothes unless she had too and when she did she loved robes . . . in which she would only tie loosely.)

Starre has mood changing eyes . . . they are hazel with specks of blue. It depends on what she wore to be what color they would be. She knew if she wore white eye shadow she would make her eye shine blue.  She loves to wear lingerie without undies. She loves being a tease as much as she loved writing about sex.

 

It’s like the movie “ Inside Out” I made characters for each of my personalities/ muses.

A Personal Note

I am going to a Therapist. . . I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety.

I usually write in misery; it helps with conflict. However there are times where my depression is so bad I have to fight with it to just get out bed. . . so getting discipline and motivation to write are sometimes near impossible to me.

I feel currently I am in a Sonic The Hedgehog game, “the casino level” where I am stuck in a valley of the bouncy wedges. You try to get out, but you bounce right back in the damn valley.
I feel like that now. . . I help out, something goes good, I help some more, something gets screwed up and I am back in the damn valley. Grrrrr.
It’s hard to write when I feel personally stuck.

 

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A lot has gone on within the last six months. I will post more about that on my personal site. http://beckyms1213blog.wordpress.com

However I am here because I am struggling, but I count each word, each sentence, and each page full of words a victory.
I really wish I could just write without this damn gray cloud over my head.
I just really feel discouraged. I want to feel productive, but I just feel like an empty drone in everyone’s way. I feel like my pen’s ink will dry up while I untangle my thoughts.
I hope my characters are not suffering like I am.

I appreciate the inspiration and motivation where I can get it.

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People Series: Non-Supporters: Non-wr

3. Non-writers

They are those who don’t usually read or write very much unless they have too. They avoid it like a plague, and they have no idea why writers and readers enjoy it so much.

They don’t understand why you are writing so much. . . the list is really endless. . .

  • Therapy
  • Enjoyment
  • You love to tell a good story
  • You feel connected to your character
  • You have a talent for words
  • Expression
  • You feel you need to write as much as you need to breath
  • The list goes on

They feel writers sometimes make no sense and are in a book or the computer way too long. It’s like an artist trying to explain a Picasso painting to a chest player who only see logical strategies and numbers.

A writer sees the world in a different way than those non-writers. They see the world as a story to be told or idea to be expressed. They are an artist with words as their paint.

Not all Non-writers, are non-supporters, but some just cannot relate. I have been asked “How can you sit the computer so long?” or “You really just wrote 2,500 words in the last three hours, how?”

I can sit at my computer and type and write and read like a video gamer can sit in from the TV or computer screen and play for hours at a time.

What gets me when is when a non-supporters: non-writer is completely against writing/reading.

The ones that put me down: with gut-punching quotes. . .

  • “You write or read too much.”
  • “It’s not steady or stable.”
  • “You are NOT out doing something. . .”
  • “You are wasting time on the computer.”
  • “Why aren’t you living your life?”
  • “Have you gotten a REAL job yet?”
  • “Why are you ignoring everyone?”
  • “You really think you are going to make a lot of money doing that?”

They kind of mix in with questioners.

Remember a novel does NOT get finished in one night. It takes time and dedication. It’s a lot of work to write, edit, rewrite, and edit. . . that is even before getting it in a publisher’s hands.

 

Most writer’s do NOT make millions and do NOT become super famous over night either. They should have some kind of support, because it hard to get out there.

People Series: Non-supporters: Questioners

2. Questioners.

They are people who keeping asking questions about your work and when you plan to get publish that they start to make you doubt yourself. Then you start to question yourself.

  • Is it really stable to make money writing a book?
  • How long do you think it will take?
  • Did your editor get all of your mistakes?
  • Are you sure you going to finish this?
  • How many publishers have you talked to?
  • Are you sure you want to do this with your time?
  • Are you sure you enjoy this?
  • What is is about?
  • Haven’t vampire, werewolves, ghosts, sex etc been done to death?
  • Are you sure it’s good?

The questions that really get to you start with “Are you sure” those are the questions that plant doubt within you. . . make you question yourself.

  • Am I good enough?
  • Will I get get published?
  • Will people actually read and like my work?
  • Should I really be writing?

Doubt goes into guilt and then guilt goes into fear. . . and next thing you know you are in therapy with writer’s block.

You need to let yourself know that there will be these people in your life. Use them to keep things in check instead of letting it get to you.

Instead of doubting yourself try to use the questions and making then into goals.

Is it really stable to make money writing a book? It can be, but you can do side jobs or part time work to have some money so you can write as well. You also make money writing. . . there are online contest for short stories or some magazines that take articles.

How long do you think it will take? It depends on how inspired you are and how determined you. Make mini goals. . . like within the first two weeks to have up to chapter 4 completed or a certain word count.

  • Did your editor get all of your mistakes?
  • Are you sure you going to finish this?
  • How many publishers have you talked to?

Just deal it when it happens. I do recheck my and other work, because I am that much of a control freak.

  • Are you sure you want to do this with your time?
  • Are you sure you enjoy this?

You would NOT be doing this, if there was not some kind of enjoyment in it. If you enjoy something, then it is NOT a waste of time.

What is is about? If you have to explain your story; they are not listening or they are confused.

Haven’t vampire, werewolves, ghosts, sex etc been done to death? Write what you like or know, others will enjoy it too. They are cycles in their fads. . .

Are you sure it’s good?

This question is worst question out of all them. . . this is the one that causes the most doubt. You need to break yourself from the haunting voice that echoes this question in your head like a very bad ghost. When you are writing do NOT think about how good or bad it is.

When writing draft one ultimate goal is to finish the work/novel/story etc.

Focus making things better to understand and to read when you edit your work a million times over.

Again do not people like this get in your head, just use them to help your goals and focus.

People Series: Non-supporters: The Indifferent Busy People

1. The Indifferent Busy People

The one group of non-supporters that I don’t mind are those who are just indifferent: The indifferent, busy people. I have them in non-supporters, because they aren’t usually going to lift a finger or encourage you one way or another. (Key word: usually) I have met a few like this, but they are usually very busy. They usually work 60 plus hours a week or they have many hobbies or lots of friends/clients.

  • They don’t care what you are doing.
  • You have your thing, and they have their thing. Actually they are probably grateful that you are into your own thing so you can leave their thing alone.
  • They are busy with their life, and I think they expect you to busy with yours.
  • They are probably the people you meet through a friend of a friend of a friend or at some sponsored dinner party.

However, keep in mind, they may be the type to keep in touch with as they will be the type to have the greatest network of connections.

Personally, I admire their work ethic and determination. They are very focus, and it’s very inspiring.