I love writing; in fact, I believe it’s what I live for.
However I fight with depression, anxiety, PTSD, and now I am learning PCOS (it’s a female things, I am 90% of all of the symptoms.)
I get easily frustrated when I can’t get all of the things I want to done, because my depression, or anxiety instantly drained me. I would love to use my writing to release my negativity, but there are days were I can barely get out of bed or pick up a pen. (I’m currently in a living situation where my computer and sleep Cpap machine are taking up the same space. I have to take one down to put the other one up.)
Last week, I finished chapter 8 after I had to rewrite it (because I had a corrupted file.) My depression and anxiety just did not let me enjoy my accomplishment. I just wish I can get rid of the negative feelings.
I give myself goal and they usually get blown out of proportion because something happens: doctor appointment goes wrong, my female issues come up (and drain me so bad I do not get out bed for days) or extra errands. I have learned that at times if I do too much that day, my writing (goals) suffer.
I wish I could focus primarily on my writing, but I cannot until I take care of my health and get a better place.
This does NOT mean I will stop writing, but I just realized that things will probably slow down, because even today, I had a horrible migraine in my eyes and the humidity just made it worst. I just wanted to write and I know my family is going to want the lights off. Grrr.
I just hope to post more blogs, short stories, and the last two chapters of third installment on my thriller trilogy set.
I even made a new instagram account Rebekah Quinne Instagram