Camp NaNoWriMo July 2019

I am writing in Camp NaNoWriMo this month.

I gave myself the goal of 30,000 words.

I am working on a nonfiction piece of family stories.

(However with my depression and anxiety, it may get changed.)

However I have to do everything by hand. My battery charger dropped and is now magnetic and is causing our other units from charging when they are pulled in. So I’m thinking of selling my laptop and getting another. Grrrr.

Camp is no hands on.

Writing Suggestion

First of all, this is not advice, because deep down 90% of people never take the advice when someone gives it anyway.

Secondly, I writing this blog more for myself (self talk), but if it helps others . . . awesome!

My suggestion: Focus on your own writings. 

Do not worry if some self-published writer had 60 novels and three amazon awards.
(It doesn’t make you any less of a writer.) 
Just say congrads and if they have a book give away, read it and see what the hype is. (Note: They might not even be in your genres.)

Write down your goals and dreams and focus on what you want to do for you. 
Be happy when you even get one fan (that is not a friend or family, who would say that you are good no matter what. . . And thank your family for their support and putting up with you. . . you can get cranky interrupted from your writing mode. )
Enjoy the compliments. (Say thank you and focus back into your work)
Use the criticism to help your work. (Remember not everyone is going to enjoy your work. Focus on your target audience, once your figure out who they are.)

Stop comparing your work to others.
Your work is different and your fans enjoy work.

Focus and you can make your dreams come true!

 

Working on Nonfiction

I wrote 30,691 words on Camp NaNoWriMo. I wish I wrote more, but I’ve been battling with my muses.

So I decided to write some personal articles.

(Since my mom is getting hernia surgery this month, I’m using this to write and learn about myself and be a distraction.)

I will be posting on these blogs

http://Rebekah1213.WordPress.com

http://beckyms1213blog.WordPress.com

http://rqshortstories.WordPress.com

Please read and enjoy.

Muses vs what I want to do vs inspiration

I wanted to work on this dragon story for my brothers. I used Tom tell them stories at bed time. The stories were about Star wars, dragons, Harry Potter etc. Whatever story I made up, I would put them in it. I would make my special effects, sounds and I would add some humor relief.

I always wanted to write a story about dragons and add them in it. . . Bring my brothers to my created world.

However my sci-fi and fantasy muse Luna, is not that loud, busy or strong. . . Not confident as those are not my natural genres. It hard for me to get that genre because I have my head filled with horror, thriller, paranormal, drama, romance, and erotica. (My muses really have been pushing the drama and erotica.)

I guess I just miss my brothers. . . I know my inspiration will lead back if I am truly meant to write it. . . But I can’t even figure out a villain or an outline.

I feel it’s not right to fight it. I’m not giving up, but it needs to simmer in the inspiration pot some more. I learned when I push work, especially writing, I just end up stuck, in a writer’s block.

I’m just going to give my muses a chance to lead me for a while.

September to do list 

September 2017 to do list

  • Help mom with a professional letter for a grant
  • Finish reading “Greg” by James
  • Finish my novella trilogy Driving Lies
  • Finish part 1 therapy story The Broken Path part 1 ghost stories
  • Confessions
  • 3 erotica short stories
  • Work on unicorn story online and character sketches
  • Write 3 personal blogs per week http://beckyms1213blog.wordpress.com 
  • Write one spiritual blog per week http://spiritualbeck.wordpress.com
  • One to Two writing blogs per week. (posted here)
  • Work on fantasy football team
  • Finish my catfish story

So far behind. . .

Today has been first day in a week, I have written. It was touch and go, because to be honest I lost my first 2500 words. I was frustrated, but I laughed and worked through it. 

I have to give some credit to mom . . . She has dealt with all of my mood swings and yet she is still pushing me to write even with her tablet while my computer collects dust. 

She wants me to get to my writing goal so I can treat myself with notebooks, pens (which she borrows) and cups. 

My camp nanowrimo goal 35k. If I reach 30k I will be content to allow myself to get my notebooks and pens at school time prices. If I get to my 35k I will get myself a travel cup as well. However I have four days to go to 22k to 35k . . . Can I do it?

Therapy

My word count is really behind by 3500 by now. . . (I’m still over 22k out of 35k). My problem is with my health issues  and errands, I get exhausted so easily. I mention this a lot in my personal blog. (my personal blog)

Even now I have a headache, but I am working through it. 

The thing is this project is a therapy project it is taking a lot out of me, and I haven’t even gotten to the meat of the issues yet. Then add the issues that I am currently doing with, I’m not sure if I am going to actually finish my word count. This project was done by hand too. 

Issues going on

  • Dealing with negative family members
  • Lack of motivation  (depression and exhaustion)
  • Panic and anxiety attacks
  • Hormone issues (solitude vs feeling lonely)
  • Errands
  • Nightmares vs weird dreams
  • Insomnia  (feel like a zombie)
  • Stomach issues (yes, I need to get to the doctor.)

Going on in March

I am very happy that many people are liking my facebook page http://www.facebook.com/Rebekahquinne
and liking this blog. . .

I hope to post a few pieces this weekend.

What is going on. . .

  • I have been helping friends with babysitting and remodeling their house when I am not writing.
  • I’m also very addicted to coffee.
  • However now I am working not one but two projects. They are quite the opposite in style. I would call one an erotic thriller, and the other a bloody epic tale.
  • I also am trying to discipline myself to make sure I write something everyday and get to post on this blog at least once a week.
  • I’m also trying to read and research more.
  • I have been and I still am working on recovering from some personal issues. It’s been a rough six months. I hope to write a story or two from it.

I’m giving myself daily goals. . .

  1. Excerise daily (whether it’s you tube or just a walk)
  2. Write something everyday
  3. Read something everyday
  4. Eat better

 

People Series: Non-Supporters: Non-wr

3. Non-writers

They are those who don’t usually read or write very much unless they have too. They avoid it like a plague, and they have no idea why writers and readers enjoy it so much.

They don’t understand why you are writing so much. . . the list is really endless. . .

  • Therapy
  • Enjoyment
  • You love to tell a good story
  • You feel connected to your character
  • You have a talent for words
  • Expression
  • You feel you need to write as much as you need to breath
  • The list goes on

They feel writers sometimes make no sense and are in a book or the computer way too long. It’s like an artist trying to explain a Picasso painting to a chest player who only see logical strategies and numbers.

A writer sees the world in a different way than those non-writers. They see the world as a story to be told or idea to be expressed. They are an artist with words as their paint.

Not all Non-writers, are non-supporters, but some just cannot relate. I have been asked “How can you sit the computer so long?” or “You really just wrote 2,500 words in the last three hours, how?”

I can sit at my computer and type and write and read like a video gamer can sit in from the TV or computer screen and play for hours at a time.

What gets me when is when a non-supporters: non-writer is completely against writing/reading.

The ones that put me down: with gut-punching quotes. . .

  • “You write or read too much.”
  • “It’s not steady or stable.”
  • “You are NOT out doing something. . .”
  • “You are wasting time on the computer.”
  • “Why aren’t you living your life?”
  • “Have you gotten a REAL job yet?”
  • “Why are you ignoring everyone?”
  • “You really think you are going to make a lot of money doing that?”

They kind of mix in with questioners.

Remember a novel does NOT get finished in one night. It takes time and dedication. It’s a lot of work to write, edit, rewrite, and edit. . . that is even before getting it in a publisher’s hands.

 

Most writer’s do NOT make millions and do NOT become super famous over night either. They should have some kind of support, because it hard to get out there.

People Series: Non-supporters: Questioners

2. Questioners.

They are people who keeping asking questions about your work and when you plan to get publish that they start to make you doubt yourself. Then you start to question yourself.

  • Is it really stable to make money writing a book?
  • How long do you think it will take?
  • Did your editor get all of your mistakes?
  • Are you sure you going to finish this?
  • How many publishers have you talked to?
  • Are you sure you want to do this with your time?
  • Are you sure you enjoy this?
  • What is is about?
  • Haven’t vampire, werewolves, ghosts, sex etc been done to death?
  • Are you sure it’s good?

The questions that really get to you start with “Are you sure” those are the questions that plant doubt within you. . . make you question yourself.

  • Am I good enough?
  • Will I get get published?
  • Will people actually read and like my work?
  • Should I really be writing?

Doubt goes into guilt and then guilt goes into fear. . . and next thing you know you are in therapy with writer’s block.

You need to let yourself know that there will be these people in your life. Use them to keep things in check instead of letting it get to you.

Instead of doubting yourself try to use the questions and making then into goals.

Is it really stable to make money writing a book? It can be, but you can do side jobs or part time work to have some money so you can write as well. You also make money writing. . . there are online contest for short stories or some magazines that take articles.

How long do you think it will take? It depends on how inspired you are and how determined you. Make mini goals. . . like within the first two weeks to have up to chapter 4 completed or a certain word count.

  • Did your editor get all of your mistakes?
  • Are you sure you going to finish this?
  • How many publishers have you talked to?

Just deal it when it happens. I do recheck my and other work, because I am that much of a control freak.

  • Are you sure you want to do this with your time?
  • Are you sure you enjoy this?

You would NOT be doing this, if there was not some kind of enjoyment in it. If you enjoy something, then it is NOT a waste of time.

What is is about? If you have to explain your story; they are not listening or they are confused.

Haven’t vampire, werewolves, ghosts, sex etc been done to death? Write what you like or know, others will enjoy it too. They are cycles in their fads. . .

Are you sure it’s good?

This question is worst question out of all them. . . this is the one that causes the most doubt. You need to break yourself from the haunting voice that echoes this question in your head like a very bad ghost. When you are writing do NOT think about how good or bad it is.

When writing draft one ultimate goal is to finish the work/novel/story etc.

Focus making things better to understand and to read when you edit your work a million times over.

Again do not people like this get in your head, just use them to help your goals and focus.