This week has been up and down. I’ve been fighting both writer’s block and depression (and yes, I think they are linked this time).
I have always had issues with my physical appearance as I am bigger woman. I have tried the exercise and diets ,. . . I will lose 20 ponds here or there, but I still end up gaining it back and then some. I have learned to deal with myself. So when someone calls me beautiful, pretty, cute etc. . . I will say thank you but I usually blow it off. (As there are usually at least two negative comments on weight compared to the positive.)
The comments, compliment, encourage comes from my writing truly makes my day!
- I love when those say they love my writing.
- They said they enjoyed my writing.
- When they say they want to read more.
- When they say my writing touches their soul.
- When they say they can relate to characters.
- When they call me a real writer.
- When they said I will be published soon. (They had more hope than I did.)
Writing comments and compliments mean more to me as physical issues only last so long, but my writing can touch other now and in the future.
Camp NaNoWriMo is almost here. . .
I have three hours of editing left and between tonight and tomorrow I will get it done.
However I feel I barely touched my novel. I think I will need to rewrite and edit in May. Hopefully by then I will have two projects to edit.
There are some day where I could focus, and get hours of editing done.
Then there were times where I was completely distracted with yoworld, words with friends, and frustration over weak bi-polar wifi.
I learned it’s hard to put a headset on and edit as I have read and reread my pieces.
I wish I had money for someone else to edit for me.
Just less than 25 hours for Camp NaNoWriMo. Yay.
However 50 hours of editing is nothing to complain about. . . I cut out a lot of my story and rewriting to make it more of the ghosts then of therapy.
Version A was my therapy. Version B and up were my paranormal story.
Have you ever reread a piece of your own writing and asked yourself any one of the following. .
- What was I thinking when I wrote that?
- What was I trying to say?
- Why did I just repeat myself?
- Why didn’t I give enough information?
- Where was I going with that?
- Why did I use the cliché?
- Was I trying to piss my audience off?
The last one made me laugh.
The thing I have learned like any art that writing is never truly finished. There is always a tweak or change an author can make . . . it was will turn the story completely different.
I also noticed that version A never looks like or sounds like version ZZZ.
However I have found a piece of editing that I do like that is when I get to rewrite. My problem from this when I am trying to subtract word from my lengthy novels . . . when I rewrite I usually add even more. I need to learn how to describe things in a condensed and efficient way.
My other issues when I leave words out from typing too much. I have to read and reread to catch the words that are missing.
I hope someday to be well-do enough to get a professional editor to look over my work. It really needs it.
I am distracted, yes again.
It’s day 2, in my editing, be to honest, I have six hours of editing in, but I look at my editing now. I’m just like meh. (the thing is I have several pieces I can edit and the motivation is just not there. Why is that?)
I am a writer. I hate to edit.
It goes in this order, writing, reading, cooking and somewhere way down the line of me is editing. (If I had reading friends and money: I would simply pay them to find errors and confusion in my works.)
I love to write, create, and inspire, but right now I am just fighting with sucky wifi.
I was up today by 9 am: dinner was in the slow cooker by 9:45 am and yet now it’s noon and I have none of my editing done. Sigh.
March is going to be a long month.
I wanted to edit two projects. . . it down to one as I do not have part three of my thriller typed (It will be Camp NaNo in April’s project)
I am working on paranormal book The Whispering Path. It has over 180,000 words (overwritten, I tell the story like in three different ways within the same book.)
I love to write. I hate to edit, so I need to make a list of things I enjoy so I can treat myself.
Treats for editing
- Watching Youtube videos
- Short stories
- make favorite dinner
- Yoworld (facebook)
- Go for a walk
So my sleep schedule is off. . . it is now 3 am in the morning.
I was scanning my facebook main page. . . as one of my many distraction as lately.
There was a post to share the link of your first published book.
Here’s my link. . .
The Whispering Path. (2011)
It was even under my old pen name Rebekah Wolveire
It hit me . . . I know I need to reedit and rewrite (after eight years of learning of the writing career and how to better your novels and such etc). I plan to write and reedit this book and make an e-book this summer.
So this is what happens to me at 3 am in the morning.
So please look for The Whispering Path in the Summer of 2019. (As long as I do not get distracted.)
I’ve been dealing with wifi issues. . . so I have time to write and I have no focus, sigh.
My favorite time even now. . . just sitting in front of a screen and getting ready to type.
I loved the time when I was with my ex (may he rest in peace.) The four hours I have while he would sleep (while our sleep schedules were overlap). I would drink my soda or coffee and work on my writings. ( I especially loved it during NaNoWriMo time.)
I wish I could have those four hours by myself at least Monday thru Friday.
I just want to write each day for so many hours and have focus while I have that time. (Currently, I just try to plug myself in to my music and focus so that all those around disappear and I can simply focus on whatever story I am working on.)
It’s my happy time.